"when someone cuts your heart open with a knife, now youre bleeding"
MATT'S POV
It was only Friday, and yet Madison and John have been hanging out every day since Monday.
Ugh, John. I hate John and his stupid "perfect jawline". Since when did jawlines become such a big fucking deal?
But that's not even the funny part-- he asked her to be his girlfriend and she said yes. She said yes!
They've hung out, what, a total of 5 days? There's nothing good about that guy. And I should be her boyfriend.
I've finally admitted it to myself once I saw her walk in from her date with John. She looked so happy, and I came to terms with the fact that I wanted to be the reason she's smiling like that.
Not stupid John.
"Matt get out of our way, you're blocking the stairs!" Madison yelled at me, her and Lexi pushing past me.
Now that queen bee was done hanging out with her tool, her 'best friend' finally had time to hang out with her. You know, it was only like, 8 p.m. at the end of the week.
I shook my head and hurried up the stairs after them, going into my room. Believe it or not, I have actually been trying to take Madi's advice about my fans.
And one step towards being nicer is a twitcam. I told them I'd do a Q&A one tonight, and now is the time to do it.
After I finished setting it all up, I posted the link and hundreds of people began swarming onto the page.
I put a smile on my face, a real one. All these people genuinely care about me, and are watching me answer questions. That's dedication if I've ever seen it.
"Hey guys! Ready to ask some questions?" I asked into the laptop, putting my hands under my chin and looking up like a diva.
I laughed at myself and put my hands down, looking through the comments to pick out a few questions.
"Alright, Cassie asks; 'so you and Madison AREN'T dating?' No, we aren't. I don't know where those rumors came from, but they're not true." I replied, doing a once-over the comments looking for questions not pertaining to Madison, but failed to find any.
"Melissa asks; 'isn't she dating someone else anyways?' Yeah, his name is John.
Danielle asks; 'Do you and John get along?' We haven't really spoken a lot but I guess, he seems cool."
Lies.
As I was about to answer another question, I heard Madison and Lexi squealing from the other room. Probably ogling over John again. "Shut up, will you?" I yelled before focusing my attention back onto the twitcam.
"Sorry guys, Madison and her friend are really loud. Anyways...
Dylan asks; 'Do you two even get along?' Um, not really. But sometimes. It depends, I dunno.
Sarah asks; 'Can you follow me on twitter? @espinosaaaababe' I will when the twitcam is over, I'll do a follow spree as well.
Jessica asks; 'Can you bring Madi in for the twitcam? She's soo pretty' Um, yeah.. I guess. If she wants to, that is."
Why why why did I ever agree to being nicer to my fans?
"Madison! Get in here!" I shouted. "Sorry for yelling guys, I don't feel like getting up." I told the laptop screen in a quieter voice, laughing.
My door opened, an audible groan following. "What do you want?" Madi asked, annoyance clear in her voice.
I put on my sweetest smile (fake, of course). "My dearest fans want you to come on the twitcam for a few minutes. They think you're soooo pretty." I told her, drawing out the 'so'.
She sighed and walked into my room further. "Lexi, I'll be back in in a few minutes!"
Madison sat down next to me on the bed, waving to the built in camera on my laptop. "Hey guys! Sorry I look gross, wasn't expecting to be broadcast in front of thousands of people tonight." She said, chuckling.
I, for one, have no idea what she's talking about because she looks perfect and I hate that my mind is so willing to admit that.
"Let's continue with the questions, shall we?" I said, scrolling for more.
"Okay. Claire asks; 'Madi, how long have you known John?'" I recited the question, looking at her. I wanted to know this too.
Her eyebrows shot up, as if she wasn't expecting to have to answer any questions. "Well, we met like, 2 years ago, my freshman year." She pursed her lips. "He was friends with my brother."
"Wait, so you didn't just meet on Monday?" I asked without thinking.
She just laughed at me. "Yeah, of course. You think I'd just go out with some guy I've only known for a week?"
Yes..
I shook my head and returned the laugh. "Janet asks; 'But is it true you two kissed?' Um.." I trailed off, not knowing what to say.
Madi, thank god, answered for me. "Yeah, we did. But it was a bet, it meant absolutely nothing."
Her words kind of stung me, but I did tell her it was a test and that I was glad she didn't like me, though it was all a total lie. If she had just reacted differently, it'd be me instead of John..
"Earth to Matt? I'm leaving now. Lexi's probably trashing my room." She said, waving a hand in front of my face and getting off the bed. "Thanks for the questions, guys!"
I watched her leave before turning back to the screen. I skimmed a few of the questions, and read one that said 'you like her, don't you?'
"You have no idea." I involuntarily muttered, before deciding it was time to close up shop. "Alright guys, thank you so much for all the questions and sorry if I didn't answer yours! We can do this again sometime. But for now, I have a follow spree to get to, right?" I said, winking.
"Love you all so much, thank you for watching me, bye!" And the twitcam was over.
I exited the website and opened twitter instead, posting a tweet to start the follow spree.
As I went down the list of people who retweeted it and followed them, I kept thinking about what Madi said earlier.
She'd known him since freshman year, and I hate to say it, but maybe he's not as bad for her as I thought. If she's still friends with him after that long, I'm assuming he's a good person. If not, she wouldn't be around him. After seeing her deal with Blake I realized that she could carry her own weight and do what's best for herself.
I don't deserve her, hell, anyone could tell you that. I don't know if John does, either. But I do know that he deserves someone like her more than I do.
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A.N: oh my god matt youre such a goddamn sap
sO john and madison are dating now, huh????? tell me what you think about that in the comments!
also, important: i decided to change who portrays john to Ben Bowers, and I replaced the edits from Ch 15 & 16 with new ones. I'm especially in love with the one from chapter 16, so i'm going to post it in this media box too incase you didn't see it.
ALSO ALSO I made madison's twitter! Since MadiBell was taken, I made her twitter @madibelI, the last "L" actually being an uppercase i.
So if you were typing it into the adress bar it would be: twitter.com/madibeli
^^^^^ feel free to tweet her acct / ask her questions and you'll be tweeted back :)
/// anyways, please please please comment (and vote) and tell me what you think of this chapter!! i really want to hear your opinions about both madi and matt (and even john haha) and theres absolutely nothing more i love than reading the comments oh my god
alright love you guys so much and thanks for all the support, cant believe we passed 5k reads and 200+ votes!!
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Settle Down (Matt Espinosa)
Fanfiction"For crying out loud, settle down. You know I can't be found with you." - The 1975, Settle Down (2018 disclaimer.... I wrote this when I was 14 years old. It is cliche, cringe-y, and not written to my current standards. I will probably not get arou...
