Stupid Feelings for Stupid Boys

Alone (T.L)

I just need someone right now. I feel so alone right now. It's over it's all over, there's no going back. I'm done with you. I bet you don't even care. You won't even know this is about you specifically. I thought I actually meant something to you but now I feel like that was all a lie. I never thought that you'd be the one to lie to me but I guess I was wrong. Again my heart is shattered and I'm not sure I'll be able to pick up the pieces. I just wanted to matter to you. You said I did, you lied. I thought you'd be different. I was wrong, so very wrong. We seemed like the perfect match. We had so much in common. You gave me nicknames that I never was able to come up with. All those messages and conversations are gone. You never talk to me, I never see you. What changed? Just tell me. All I want is for you to talk to me but you don't even do that. I'm tired of waiting around for you. I'm tired of being your bother. I was foolish to think this was real. You're older, why would you ever be serious about me? I'm done with this. I won't put myself through it any longer. I'm sure you won't even notice. But I will. I already feel empty inside and the tears just don't seem to end. It's going to be hard letting go of you. I feel like my eyes won't shine as bright anymore. You won't care though. So this is goodbye. I hope you read this and I hope you know I'm talking to you.