Your beautiful: pjm

Pt 10; to forgive

She ran into her room as tears ran down her soft cheeks. She turned quickly and found Jimin looking at her with an sad look on his face.

She wiped a stray tear from her cheek and made sure she composed herself before she turned to him trembling. She tried so hard to not look at his face knowing the memories of that dreadful night would come rushing back to her. "Y/N are you okay?"

Jimin didn't know what else to say. The guy who raped her is asking if she's okay after having an other encounter with her abuser from Busan. He saw her looking away from him and it hurt. I don't want her to be afraid of me. Her sobbing filling my ears and it hurts, affecting me right in the heart. "No I'm not okay... I-I feel awful, disgusting, and weak... I'm scared of being hurt."

Her eyes shift as she turns to look at me, her hands trembling. I look down to see her eyes full of fear and still watery. I carefully place a kiss on her forehead, making her flinch a little but I soon pull away and bring her to my chest, resting my chin on top of her head. I snuggle my face into the nape of her neck, taking in her sweet scent. Before placing a light kiss on the skin making her tingle. I missed her so much. I've hurt her physically, mentally and emotionally. Forgiveness is not in my favour.

I want to protect her. I want her to be safe. I press my forehead on hers and abruptly she wraps her arms around me. Hugging me tightly, making me choke up. I want her to be mine. I want to be hers.

You can't lie, you miss him so much. This week has been awful for you. Until now, Jimin has never hurt you. He's never done something like this. He's always treated you right.

"I know," He muttered, "I know, I know. I'm an awful friend. I-I hurt you in the worst way. All because I was stressed.. This past week has felt like years. I just accepted the fact that I ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me." He choked on his words as tears welled up in his eyes, making the same happen to you.
"Jimin-"

He kneeled down in front of you as you let go from hugging.

"I-I know I shouldn't even think about asking for forgiveness. B-but just please! I'll do whatever I can to gain your trust again. We'll take small baby steps. We'll start over. I'll show you how much I love you everyday! I'll show you that I'm not the kind of person to hurt you. I promise. I just don't think I'll be able to go on without you, your my best friend" Jimin finished before looking down at the ground. You stared at him as tears rolled down your cheeks. Your were still uncomfortable but you also wanted to forgive him because he was also your best friend. He was your comfort and you were his.

"Jimin, stand up." You demanded. He listened, slowly standing up to face you with tears running down his cheeks. He was an exact reflection of you.
He stared at you, expecting the worse. It's the end for sure. "I was already planning on forgiving you even if it took awhile. But besides you taking advantage of me, your words that you spoke that night were cruel and reminded me of when those guys in Busan bullied me. I was scared because you never spoke that way to me." Jimin's heart was shattered and he was scared of himself. He wanted to know everything that happened so he could apologize fully. "Y/N...This might be hard but... could you tell me everything that happened that night. I want to know what I did so I could apologize accordingly."

To be continued...