"Please Y/N! It's just not fair for you to carry the burden of that memory all by yourself. I'm scared because I don't even know what I did and it's awful." Jimin was on the verge of tears, he was so desperate to hear it. He knew how awkward it would be but it was something he really wanted to know. He just needed her to be honest and tell him everything that he put her through. "Jimin I-I'll tell you but just know that I forgive you now, I don't want to tell you and have you feel guilty." Jimin nodded and shut the door as they made their way to sit on her bed. He decided he was going to listen to her with his back facing her. It would be harder to actually listen and look into her innocent beautiful eyes.
"I had just got done taking a shower and I was only wearing a towel. I walked towards my bed only to see you drunk and laying down. I tried my best to convince you to leave but my efforts were useless, as you only cussed me out and cornered me, eventually you grabbed my arm and pulled me to the bed. I don't think you really knew what you were doing but it was scary none the less." Y/N went on about in detail about he did everything from when he entered himself to when finally stopped and collapsed. Jimin, on the other hand, wasn't handling it well. He had already started sobbing when she told him how rude he was to her. Jimin did not picture his first time to be this way. He definitely knew that she wasn't planning to lose her virginity to him.
Especially in this manner.
"No, this isn't me...I WOULDN'T DO THIS!!...I-I-I would never dream of doing this to you, I hope you know that I never thought or looked at you lustfully, if anything I wanted to be at least friends with you but I can't lie and say that I never wished to be lovers. I'm ashamed to have even touched you like that. I'm disgusted at myself for forcing...you..." Jimin couldnt take it anymore. Being in her pressence brought tears to his eyes. He got up and rushed to his room sobbing as he thought of what he did.
How could I do this?! To my first love!? He slept in bed all day, staring at the ceiling most of the time. He was drowning in his regret, shame, guilt and sorrow. "Jimin!" Suga called as him, Jungkook, Tae and Namjoon stood at the door of the bedroom. He laid there on the bed, arms flared out as he gazed at the ceiling.
"What?" He grumbled.
"You can't stay in here forever." V voiced, looking at Jimin with worried eyes.
"I can and I will." Jimin replied dully, before turning onto his side, so his back was facing them.
"Well your gonna have to get over it soon, because we have to go to Tokyo for a fan meet and Y/N has a photo shoot there."
Jimin totally forgot that she was a model for a clothing company...She never really talked about it. "We are going together and your room is going to be shared with her, so please stop being lazy and get up. I realize that it's hard between you two...but you guys can't go on like that forever. Just pack up and get yourself together. For the fans, okay?" Taehyung left Jimin to let him start his packing.
Author note///
I know, I know it's short but the next chapter that is based in a hotel/travel setting is going to be long. I want to make longer chapters but school is a drag so haha. Thank you :)
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FanfictionA story about a girl living with the Bangtan Boys. And Jimin whom adores her. Warning: This fan fiction contains mentions of drinking, rape, and bullying.
