Be Alright • Jariana Fanfiction

~Chapter 34: I'm gone. ~

Justin: baby please
Justin: I'm sorry
Justin: I love you
Justin: stop ignoring me I know you're reading this
Justin: please! I'm nothing without you.
Justin: Ariana!
Justin: I fucking love you!
Justin: please...

I felt tears roll down my cheek.

Mom walks in.

"Ariana, he's just a boy." She says, putting hot chocolate on he desk. "He's clearly not the one, he'll get over you. And you'll get over him. Call me if you need anything, okay honey?"

I nodded.

Justin: I FUCKING LOVE YOU AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU
Ariana: if you love me and you'd do anything for me, then leave me the fuck alone.

I throw my phone across the room in frustration.

I started sobbing and sniffing. I couldn't stop crying no matter how much I try. I heard the door knock.

"It's Janessa."

"I don't want to see you or Justin ever again."

Janessa walks in.

"I heard my brother cheated on you. I'm so fucking sorry. I'll make sure Justin gets what he deserves."

"Can you just leave me alone?"

"If that's what you want."

She leaves.

"Ariana, we're going to the grocery store!" Mom yells from downstairs.

"Okay." I yelled.

Ariana: do you really love me.
Justin; yes Ariana!!
Ariana: then why'd you fuck Hailey.
Ariana: the girl who helped me during rehab.
Justin: I'll tell you after you come back please.
Ariana: nevermind. bye. I don't want to see your face ever again.

I feel so overdramatic. Am I really going to do this over a boy?

This is so fucking stupid.

I grabbed a pen and a piece of paper.

I wrote down what I needed to say.

I went downstairs into the medicine cabinet I surprisingly found. I search through the drawers and found this type of blade that you use to sharpen things like pencils.

I sat on my bed, letting tears fall down my cheek as I looked at the bottle of pills in my hand.

I carved deep into my skin, crying and sobbing at the pain. I carved 'heartbreak.' And 'stress' on my other.

I hated the stinging and the pain of it. and so I cried and cried. Watching gushing blood fall down into the bed.

I grabbed the water bottle. I poured the whole bottle of pills into my mouth and swallowed it with water.

I started to spit out some type of white foamy substance before I felt myself fall backwards and see darkness. Forgetting everything I just did.

I'm sorry. There's no reason I should live anymore. My fake dad raping me, My real parents coming back, The car crash, stress, pain, heartbreak, is overwhelming me and telling me I should leave this world altogether.

goodbye.

- love ariana