The Diary Of An Emotional Teenaged Girl (AKA Me)

We're Different Now

So you know how in movies there's a girl that's got all these like nerdy, loserish looking kind of guy friends and they all basically grow up together as best friends just that girl and her guys? And then how those guys end up becoming super hot and popular while the girl is still just her? And then how those guys get all the chicks while the girl is still kind of eh looking?

That's how I feel in this moment.

Austin and Jay, my internet boys who have been my friends now for four years now, were not the hottest, most popular guys in their schools. I wasn't either and that's what made us more tight was that we weren't like the other kids in the school essentially. Four years have passed now and looking at their new feeds, I was shook at how different in a good way they've become. They're hot man. And it makes me upset because like I don't have that effect like they do, like holy crap couldn't you have like glowed up a little less? I know we're all like 500 miles away but y'all boys are mine not all these cheerleaders that you've got blowing up your comments. Where are the guys blowing up my comments? The only guys that comment on my pics are the ones that laugh at my captions because I hate being basic it just disgusts me to put captions like "life's a beach and I'm just playing in the sand" like no I hate that. These guys just have to post a picture without a caption and they get a hundred comments from girls saying "hey daddy" and "you're hot" and stuff like that and I mean of course I don't want guys commenting "eyy mami" or "uz a cutie" or something stupid like that but like throw me some heart eyed emojis and we'd be real good ya feel?

Now, I haven't exactly worded this exactly how I think it makes me feel but at this point you'll know words aren't my prime way to tell something, especially something that I feel so strong about like these guys.