Y/n stood there . Alone .
She hated it . It was quiet . She felt it again . The silence , the loneliness .
Y/n fell to her knees , crying . "Everytime." Y/n whispers . The pain in her chest was overwhelming . She just wanted the floor to eat her right there .
She steadily picked herself up and made her way to her bedroom . She laid down , already regretting it . The feeling of how cold the bed was . How lonely it felt . The bed felt bigger . She needed something . Someone .
Y/n never even considered Lena a weakness . Sure she did at the start , but she loves the time blinker .
All night , Y/n tried to fall asleep . She kept twisting and turning in her sleep . Her eyes wouldn't close at all . Her heart was just experiencing to much pain . Y/n knew that all her walls were broken down . And now , her heart was too .
The noirette couldn't handle it .
She stood up and put on a leather jacket . Grabbed her phone and purse then she walked out of her room into the dim lit hallways . She knew it was late . But she didn't care .
She got in her car and drove to somewhere she knew she shouldn't be . A place where she swore never to go again . But her chest was aching . So she drove .
Lena on the other hand wasn't taking the break-up to good either . Lena knew it was her choice but it was also for the better .
She cried silently . Feeling the same feeling when Y/n laid on the bed . Cold and empty . The Brit got up and went to her kitchen and made herself a cup of tea .
She walked out into thr balcony , her cup in hand . She sipped the warm brew and sighed . Lena just wished that Y/n would come and wrap her arms around her waist . Alas , she knew it was for the better .
So Y/n wouldn't have to endure more pain . Little did she know , Y/n was enduring more pain that her heart could take .
After driving for a few minutes , Y/n arrived at her desired place . Y/n got out her car and wasted no time in entering the place . A bar .
Y/n sat down on one of the stools and a bartender came . "What do you want?" the bartender asked . "You know what to give me Shaun." Y/n said . "Y/n , it is you . Of course , strongest one?" Shaun asked . Y/n only nodded , not even uttering a single word .
Shaun left to take the noirette's drink . He came back with a bottle of alcohol . Y/n took the bottle and drank nearly half of the bottle . The effects were taking a toll on her but her heart was still suffering . Y/n drank more . Trying desperately to rid the pain .
Y/n finished the first bottle and placed it on the table . "Woah , rough day?" Shaun asked . "My girlfriend made us have some time apart." Y/n said . "Give me more." Y/n ordered . Drink after drink , Y/n only drank more .
Her senses were numb , but her heart still felt .
By now , the noirette could barely stand on her two feet . "Y/n , you've taken to much . I think you should stop." Shaun advised . Y/n shook her head and asked for more .
Shaun watched the noirette as she stared at her bottle with an unreadable expression and emotionless stare . Back then , Y/n was a regular customer . Coming in every night to drink her problems away . Soon , Y/n fixed her problem and soon she stopped . But now here she is , heartbroken , alone and cold .
Shaun shook his head as he watched Y/n ad one of the other bartender's in the bar handed her a cigarette . Y/n breathed in the intoxicating smoke .
Y/n knew this could kill her . The smoke filled her lungs , numbing her senses even more .
Smoking helped Y/n feel numb . And it she needed it . She also needed Lena .
Smoking could kill her yes but Lena could kill her too . And the noirette would die for her anyday .
Y/n took in more hits . Time flew by , Lena fast asleep with tear stains on her cheeks . Y/n , drunk out of her mind . In pain .
Y/n attempted to walk , almost tripping but luckily , Shaun came and quickly held Y/n up . "Alright Y/n , I called you an uber to pick you up and make sure you reach your place." Shaun said and Y/n nodded .
Like said , an uber came and picked up Y/n . The driver drove to the given address . The car arrived at Y/n's place and the driver dropped her off . Y/n struggled to walk straight and unlock her door .
Y/n stumbled in through her door as she cursed under her breath .
Y/n tried to go to her room but she spotted a picture of her and Lena . "How did it get here?" Y/n mumbled . The pain was there again . She grabbed the picture and tore it to pieces .
Y/n stared at the torn picture pieces as tears fell onto them .
She wasn't satisfied . She grabbed all the pieces and brought it outside . She took a out a lighter and burned them . She watched as the fire burned .
Eventually , the fire burned out and the noirette re-entered her house . She made her way upstairs , feeling a bit more sober than earlier . She glanced at the time , it was 3 in the morning . Y/n sighed and tried to get some sleep .
And yet , she couldn't seem to close her eyes . Her mind focused on only one thought . Lena .
She needed love . Affection . But the only person that showed her affection was gone .
Lena felt the same . But she made her choice . The Brit knew it was for th better . Though , Y/n felt only pain and sorrow . A feeling she thought she'd never experience with Lena .
And now she was gone .
I know , why I did this . See ya !!
-Canine🐾
