I hate myself for loving you (zarry)

Chapter 20

Before he could go away, Harry stops him by smashing his lips on Zayn's.


Zayn is caught off guard, but after a while, he melts into the kiss and starts kissing back with passion.


"I hate you Zayn Malik." When they part away, in need of air, Harry murmurs into Zayn's lips.


Zayn frowns. Then why would Harry kiss him? What was the kiss for?


Harry pulls away enough to look into Zayn's puzzled eyes. "But I love you more than I hate you, I love you more than anything in the world."


"Y-You lo-love me?"


Harry nods, "I love you. I have loved you since the day you saved me from the bullies in high school, the first time we met."


"Why didn't you tell me?" To say Zayn is shocked is an understatement. What? All these years Harry has been in love with him, and he never knew or had any clue about it. He feels like an idiot.


"I thought you were, you were straight. And, you were so in love with your high school sweetheart, remember? The day you told me that she was the one and you were going to marry her someday, I cried all night and caught a cold the next day." Harry laughs, remembering the silly little him. What's the difference between now and then? He is the same, silly and still madly in love with his best friend. Even if he wants to move on, he can't.


"That's why you couldn't go to school for a week? I was worried sick about you, Haz. I'm sorry. God, I was so stupid. I didn't-"


"No." Harry shakes his head, "It's not your fault. I was stupid too. I didn't tell you about my feelings all these years. I guess that's why we're best friends, we're both idiots." He smiles.


"Haz-"


Zayn cuts off his own speech, because Harry has a painful expression on his face as he puts his hands on his stomach.


"Haz, babe are you okay?" Zayn asks worriedly and holds Harry to support him.


"The baby just k-kicked hard..." Harry answers breathlessly. Since the baby started kicking, she sometimes would kick very hard and it kinda bothered Harry. But it's nothing that Harry can't take, he is going to be a mama after all. He is excited about all these experiences.


"Come here, love, sit down." Zayn gently guides Harry to the couch.


He kneels in front of Harry as Harry rubs his hand on his baby bump. Zayn puts his hands on Harry's bump and says, "Okay, easy there, you little troublemaker! I know you love kicking. You're going to be a very good football player when you grow up, though I kinda want you to be an artist. Whatever you want to be, your mama and I will always support your decisions. But we have a serious problem here little girl, you're giving your mama a hard time. How about you be a good girl and stop kicking hard on your mama's tummy; and when you come out, I will teach you how to play football? Do we have a deal, little princess?" Zayn rubs Harry's baby bump and kisses it.


Soon, the kicking, magically, slows down.


Zayn grins and looks up at Harry. Harry fakes a pout and whines, "You always know how to calm her." But he has a smile on his face, making him look even cuter.


Zayn laughs, sitting beside Harry. "I'm her favorite papa after all." He says cheekily as he flicks the hair which was hanging down on his forehead.


Harry snorts and playfully hits him on the chest. Zayn smiles and grabs Harry's hand. "Harry, um, I want to ask you something." His gets nervous as he looks into Harry's emerald eyes.


"What is it?" Harry asks in a baffled voice and tilts his head.


"Umm, will, will you be m-my boyfriend?"

Zayn swallows the lump in his throat. His heart is beating fast, and even though Harry just said he loves him, he still is not sure about Harry's reply.


"I thought you would never ask." Harry is sort of shocked by the question, but he has a big smile on his beautiful face.


"So?" Zayn urges.


"Yes, yes, yes!" Harry squeals, hugging Zayn tightly. Zayn grins and hugs him back.


"God, you're such a dork, Zayn Malik." Harry says after they pull away from the hug,


"I'm your dork." Zayn smiles.


"Yes, mine." Harry grins and Zayn pulls him into a sweet kiss.


Next morning.


Zayn wakes up with a sleeping beauty in his arms. He had a peaceful sleep last night. He always sleeps peacefully when Harry is his little spoon. Zayn smiles and kisses Harry's soft curls as he stirs in his arms. He remembers the first time they had sleepover at his house. It was a stormy night, and Harry was scared of the lightning, so he ended up in Zayn's arms. He was so scared and curled up into a little ball. Zayn comforted him and promised him that he would always be there for him. That night, Zayn made a promise to himself that he would protect this little angel of his forever.


A realization hits him. Maybe, maybe he had feelings for Harry even back then but he just didn't realize it, he just thought they were best friends... and Harry always had the magic that could make Zayn feel calm and peaceful, safe and sound. Harry always felt like home to him. He just thanks god that Harry didn't give up on them, he thanks god that Harry waited for him all these years.


Maybe they are just meant to be, you know.


Harry slowly opens his sleep eyes and sees Zayn looking at him with a dorky smile.


"Why are you smiling like an idiot?" Harry smiles as he asks Zayn.


"Because you're beautiful." Zayn smiles at Harry fondly.


"God help me, Zayn Malik is such a sap!" Harry covers his face with his hands to hide from Zayn's gaze.


"Hey, hey! Don't block my view. I want to see your beautiful face and shiny eyes." Zayn whines and grabs Harry's hands, attempting to pull them away from Harry's face.


"Nooo." Harry giggles and pushes Zayn away. "Get up, you sleepyhead. We have class this morning."


"Uh-uh, I woke up before you! You're the sleepyhead." Zayn taunts.


Harry sticks his tongue out and gets out of the bed. "I'm gonna makes us some breakfast."


"Okay, my beautiful housewife." Zayn winks.


Harry blushes at that but plays it off by rolling his eyes.


They enjoy breakfast, taking their own sweet time to finish. After that, Zayn drives them to school. They walk into their class hand in hand, since they had the first class together.


Lunch time came extremely slow for the students' liking.


Harry sees that Zayn and the lads were already at their usual table in the cafeteria. He walks to them with his lunch bag and sits beside Zayn. He greets them before diving into his lunch, he is fucking hungry. Don't blame him, blame the one who got him pregnant—he consoles himself.


"Hey, slow down, baby. No one's going to steal your food." Zayn chuckles.


Harry gives Zayn a 'are you sure' look and swallows down the sandwich that was in his mouth. "What about Niall?"


"Hey! I'm offended!" Niall says in indignation.


"Sorry bud, I just stated the truth." Harry shrugs and takes another bite of his food, ignoring Niall's whines.


Zayn finds Harry extremely cute when he's eating. He wants to kiss Harry all day non-stop. "Babe, you have something on your lips." He says.


"Where?" Harry asks and put his hand on his lips.


"Here." Zayn pushes Harry's hand away from his lips and pulls him into a kiss. Harry is caught off guard, but he soon melts into the kiss.


"A-Am I seeing things?" Louis eyes widen in shock.


"No, I don't think so." Niall shakes his head dumbly as his chips fall on the table from his hand.


"I see it too." Liam says astonished.


When they end the kiss, Harry buries his head in Zayn's chest, too shy to face the lads.


"Soooo, are you guys a thing now?" Niall breaks the silence.


"Yes, we're boyfriends now." Zayn nods.


"Since when?" Liam asks.


"Yesterday." Zayn grins.


"I told you, Harry! I said that Zayn has feelings for you too but you didn't believe me!" Louis says accusingly, "and I told you to confess to him since the very first day we became friends."


"What? You knew Harry had feelings for me all this time?" Zayn asks in shock.


"Of course, man. I'm his best friend, duh!" Louis shrugs.


"No. I'm his best friend slash boyfriend." Zayn corrects him.


"It's not fair! You already are his boyfriend, so now I'm his best friend." Louis argues back.


"No. He is my everything. He is mine."


"Possessive bastard!" Louis mutters.


Harry shakes his head at their childish argument and goes back to eating. He feels a pat on his shoulder, he looks up to find Luke standing by their table.


"Hey um, Harry, can we talk alone?" Luke asks.


"No, he can't." Before Harry could say anything, Zayn answers for him and puts his hand on Harry's waist protectively.


"Zayn." Harry shakes his head at Zayn, silently asking him to be nice.


"Fine. You can talk here." Zayn reluctantly says.


Harry rolls his eyes and gives Zayn a kiss on his lips. "I'll be right back, baby."


He ignores Zayn's protests and goes with Luke.


They sit on the bench outside the cafeteria silently.


"I want to apologize for yesterday. I behaved—" Luke says.


"It's okay. It's not your fault. I should be the one to apologize." Harry shakes his head.


There was an awkward silence between them again. Luke clears his throats and asks, "So, you and Zayn are together now?"


"Yes." Harry fiddles with the rings in his fingers, kinda feeling guilty for using Luke before.


"Oh..." Luke looks at his feet with a sad face. "I just want you to know that I really, really like you harry."


Harry gives Luke a hug and says,"I like you too Luke, but I love Zayn. I'm sorry."


"I should go inside now." Harry says in an apologetic voice, once they pull away from the hug.


Luke nods, watching Harry turn around and walk away.


"Wait!" Luke yells. Harry turns his head and looks at Luke confused.


"Can we still be friends?" He asks.


"Yes, we can!" Harry yells back and gives Luke a dimpled smile, waving him goodbye, before he walks into the cafeteria.


Luke just stands there, watching Harry disappear from his sight.


"Hey, Luke! Up for a FIFA game?" Ashton yells from his car.


Luke looks at his best friend and smiles, "Yes Ash."

-


Once Harry gets in the cafeteria, Zayn pulls him to his chest. "Baby, I missd you." He whines into Harry's neck.


"I was just gone for a little while." Harry laughs.


"No,it was a long while. I missed your sexy body too." He seductively says, putting his hands on Harry's bum and pinching them.


"Eww, my eyes!" Niall yells, covering his eyes.


"What the fuck are you doing to my innocent ears, Zayn? You are a pervert!" Louis shakes his head, pretending to be disappointed.


"Get a room already!" Liam shouts.


Harry blushes red like a tomato and smacks Zayn on his chest before walking out of the cafeteria again. Zayn rolls his eyes at his stupid friends.


Zayn follows Harry not long after this, flipping his friends off as they started whistling.

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This chapter dedicated to ZarryForeva14 ,she is a nice caring person and a really good friend.❤️

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