Time's Up

Zero

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Heffy..hi it's been 10 years now since you passed away. I got kids and got Serene as my wife. I didn't know how to move on Heffy...I can't and I won't move on. I feel jealous so jealous but then what am I gonna do about it?

You aren't mine to begin with.

Heffy up until you got so comfortable sleeping there underground, you didn't realized that it wasn't Serene but you...I have always loved you Heffy...always and forever.

"Clint.."

"Leave me alone for a while. I'll be going in just a few minutes."

"Okay. Love ya."

"Mmmm.."

.....

"Heffy can I sit here?"

Do you remember the first thing you said to me when we first met? You said....

"Ang pogi.."

Yes...ako yun Heffy...that was me....my name is Creg by the way. But I changed it to Clinton for good after you guys fell hard for each other.

"Heffy alam kong maraming beses ko ng naikwento saiyo ito pero wala gusto kong paulit-ulit na sabihin sayo eh, I want to somehow ease the pain by thinking and talking about the pain, martyr na kung martyr...I can't help it, can't help but be mad kahit pa na ako naman ang may kasalanan ng lahat...kung bakit ganun ang mga nangyari...kung bakit ang kambal ko ang minahal mo kahit pa na ako ang unang nakita mo."

The only reason why I was there that night is that I switched with my twin brother Clinton because he wants to go see his love; Serene Fuentes. Those two are like stringed by a red string that bonded for God knows how long. That's why I helped him—my twin brother to just meet Serene. You know his condition...mahina siya kaya hindi siya pinapalabas ng hospital pati ng Papa..

Alam mo hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam ang dahilan kung bakit hindi sinabi ng Papa sa buong mundo na kambal kami, hindi ko alam bakit niya ikinakahiya ang mga kambal pero wala na akong pake basta masaya akong nabubuhay kasama ang mga mahal ko sa buhay. Yung hospital ay tinayo para sakanya lang para sa kambal kong si Clinton lamang, ako ang nagpumilit na magkaroon siya ng sariling hospital kasi pangarap niya yun...gusto niyang maging doctor.

Napilit ko ang Papa at napili niya nga ang lugar na malapit sa barangay niyo pero sobrang layo sa city kung saan kami nakatira.

Isang gabi...isang gabi ko lang siyang pinagbigyang lumabas at yung gabing yun ay nung nakilala kita. Nagusap tayo ng tungkol sa maraming bagay nalaman ko ang lahat ng nangyari sa sa isang gabi lang na iyon. At the same time I fell for you.

Midnight came and it was time for us twins to switch places and be on the place we ought to be. But before anything become weird for you...I talked it out with Clinton and said all the things that we've talked about..you know I was thankful I didn't hit puberty at that age yet...the skinny and pale Clinton looks just like the college Creg back then.

Things got busy around the main house and I didn't have the time to go to you then. I was busy and I lost contact with my brother. When I finally got the time to visit you, I was bulkier, manlier and I didn't look like Clinton any more...so I just look from the sides. Serene also moved on and got herself a man na pamalit kay Clinton.

Aaminin ko na nainis ako dahil naging mas close kayo ni Clinton na kilala mo bilang Creg —bilang ako. Sa mga time na ito nagsisisi ako kung bakit ba kasi ganito ang prinsipyo ng tatay ko at pilit pang nilihim na kambal kami....hindi ko tuloy masabi sayo ang totoo. Habang humihina ang kapatid ko ay nanghihina karin..20 years ang tanda ng puso niyo at hindi ko alam kung bakit mukhang napapa-aga ang sayo.

Time's up for Clinton and you were crying causing you to pass out and I just couldn't get to imagine the pain that it caused me...my brother's dying and my first love is longing and crying for him.

Two people will break my heart at the same time? At first I was like no way...you both love me right? But then you were like sorry we just can't help it.

And that is when I also felt my time is up. Upon my brother's funeral which was also held secretly...he wrote a letter to me saying

I gave up my time for her bevause I love her. I'm sorry that it came to this...I stole you Creg...I am so sorry Creg but I am only telling you this cause I want to stop your time for her for a while...just for a little while because I didn't get her to experience real love at all but I know that you will. I won't regret telling you this and being so selfish for her cause I just love her so much. Take care please. Thank you for everything.

"What? You guys are just so terrible.."

But despite me trying to win you back and even getting to college again just for us to be cool...you just won't look my way. You are just always searching for his back...his light..his presence....and I envied that so much that it haunts me until this very day.

You knew me as Clinton and you couldn't even recognize that I bear the same surname as the Creg you knew at the hospital. You don't care about anything at all but his picture that you hold so dear ...it rips my heart.

I was there but you already chosen life and love with him just with him...

"I think that the barrowed time you have asked for me will never return forever...bro."

I guess since long ago....

My time was also gone.