Stuck // ag & cd

Chapter 19

Matt.

My jaw dropped seeing him at my front door.

"Hi," he said. "May I come in?"

"Depends," I said suspiciously, "what do you need?" "Well, I came to say happy birthday. From me and the guys. Especially Cameron. I also came to give you a gift from Cameron. It's something a little special," he says. He holds out a box with a card taped onto it. I hesitate to take it. "Please, take it, he really needs you to see it and it's sort of important." I press my lips into a firm line. "Okay." I take the box from him and press it against my chest. It smelled like him. Clean cotton with axe. I almost smiled. I missed him a lot.

"Did you want anything to drink or eat?" I asked. He shook his head. "No thanks, I just came to give this to you and say happy birthday." I smiled sadly. "Thanks, tell everyone I said hi." He waved goodbye and walked to his car. I shut the door and ran upstairs. My heart pounded. I really wanted to open it, but then I didn't want to. I couldn't open it in front of my friends during the party, it'd be a disaster. I opened the card.

"Hi Ariana,

I miss you a lot. Before you close this thinking that it's a rant about how I miss you and all that shit, it's not.

I wish you a happy birthday and hope you get what you've been wanting. I'd like to explain myself why I was with that girl before you started to cry and run. You're not the type to cry, you're strong-willed. But I know when that you shoved your fist into your mouth at the mall that day and stifled a sob, it killed you. I wasn't cheating on you, she was a fan that I happened to meet at the mall that day and she followed me around. I tried being nice to her and she asked for a picture of me kissing her cheek. I agreed but she tricked me and turned her cheek so that I would kiss her on the lips. I didn't like that, not at all. I didn't know she was going to do that. I know you saw that, and everyday I think about what happened after that moment I saw you cry. I saw myself being pissed, upset and sad. I couldn't handle myself. I tried calling and texting you, trying to contact you on social media. I wanted to explain myself to you so bad, I couldn't go outside because I felt horrible.

I love you, Ariana, with all of my heart.

I would never try to hurt you and I hope you understand. I'm not saying that we should get back together, but I want you to believe me. I'm trying really hard to where you can believe me.

Much love,

Cameron."

I was sobbing, slamming my fist into the wall. I immediately opened the box and found a scrapbook. Tears were everywhere. I opened the scrapbook, with my hands shaking. There was the first picture of us when we first met. There were pictures of us growing up together, and when we went to prom together. When it was my next birthday. When we went to his birthday at Six Flags.

I couldn't handle this, I slammed the book shut and screamed, sank down to the wall, kicking and hitting the walls.

I believe you, Cam.

I believe you.