With my arms wrapping around you and pulling you closer and closer after each sob that manages to escape from your lips
I pray my arms will be able to squeeze away all your pain and worries.
"I know I shouldn't say it but, I love you"
"Shh" I say as I cringe and wipe away your tears from your eyes
Grabbing your face to look into your eyes, my nose is suddenly filled with the smell of your whiskey breath.
That smell is a reminder that the love you just professed is not only not real,
But will be forgotten when the sun rises.
I look into your eyes and say the words that I never wanted to admit to myself
"I think, I'm beginning to fall in love with you, and I promise I will take care of you and give you everything I have to offer"
With pain in my heart I hold you closer
And begin to internally scream.
I've just opened the gates to my own hell.
The liquor that allowed you to open up will also wash away your emotions
The emotions I must carry now.
And the fear of what those emotions bring.
Because loving someone means giving them the chance to destroy you.
