We stayed in the grass for what seemed like only minutes, but it was pitch black when we walked back to the hotel. Calum and Ashton were asleep as soon as they hit their bed and I curled up next to Luke, whose eyes were barely open. I wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head on his shoulder, feeling his sharp bones and soft skin.
"I wish we could stay like this forever," I mumbled.
"We could if you'd like," Luke whispered back, "We could just cancel the flight tomorrow and-" I cut him off there. "No Lucas. We're going where you want to go. This is your trip and we are going to make every second count. So yes, I would love to stay here like this forever, in fact, I'd like to never let you go again, but there are things you need to see Luke, so many things that you need to witness. I don't want you to... die without any new memories." By now he was crying. He turned to face me with his teary eyes and laid on my chest. I could feel his breath on my collarbone, tickling me. And once again, we fell asleep, together, entwined.
"WEEEEE" Calum shouted before thrusting a pillow in my face. Luke jumped up groggily and screamed before glaring at the pillow thrower and getting back in bed. "Come on sleepy heads our flight leaves in an hour and we need to get to the airport. It's probably crowded as fuck already," Ashton said giggling. I pulled myself out of bed and nimbly lifted Luke from the sheets. He nuzzled my neck before I put his feet on the ground and we started packing up. I was careful to keep my suitcase out of his way to avoid any further 'is Luke going to die' moments. Within fifteen minutes we were rolling out the door to the airport, with new memories in our heads.
Ashton was right, the airport was crowded as fuck and he just laughed at us as we all pushed through the people. Calum finally kissed him to make him shut up and we carried on to the baggage check. The check only took about ten minutes, surprisingly, and we went to our gates. We were boarded almost immediately and we were sat in the very front in the very middle seats.
"This is a bit strange," Calum commented. "Yeah there's a shit ton of people out there and everything is going so fast," I agreed. Luke spoke up. "It may be me. I've started looking sicker, perhaps they noticed. Ashton quickly moved to him and hugged him. Calum followed and I eventually went and hugged him as well. "You're going to get through this," Ash whispered. "We believe in you," Cal chimed in. They all looked at me, Ash could tell I was on the verge of tears but he kept his cool. "I love you," I started, afraid to finish, "and you're going to make it." Like grinned and kissed me hard on the mouth. I didn't know how was going to do this, he only had 20 or so days left. How was I going to tell him he was going to make it, if I didn't believe it? 'He's going to make it he's going to make it' I told myself over and over again as the plane lofted off the ground. I looked over at him. He had black headphones on and they heavily contrasted with his pale face. He looked back at me and smiled. 'As long as he's still smiling he'll be fine. He's going to make it, he's going to make it I continued to tell myself. I repeated those words in my head until I nearly cried from all the stress. I needed some music to cheer me up.
I grabbed my galaxy headphones from my carry on bag and plugged them in to my phone. I turned on our pandora station and decided that whatever song came on would be the song I listened to. It just happened to be the perfect song, so I hummed along to it.
'Don't stop, doin' what you're doin' cause every time you walk in the room you've got all eyes on you and you know it, know it, know it'
It helped me cope, I was just going to have to deal with all the looks and questions directed to my cancer ridden boyfriend, because if he stopped being himself because Of a stupid disease I don't know how much I could take it.
