This Can't be Real..

Chapter 15

"Anyways I have really big news and here she is June!" Conner said waving me over.

I sat down beside him on the couch.

"Ok guys I want you to meat June my beautiful daughter!"

"Hi" I said quietly blushing looking into the camera and smiling.

"Ok so I just adopted June yesterday but I love her more then anything" he said side hugging me and kissing my forehead.

I laughed and then hugged him back
"Thanks I love you too".

"So sense this week is interview week I decided that I would interview June"he said looking down at me.

I smiled up at him and then we began
"Ok June I will be asking you 10 questions and you have to answer truthfully"

"Ok"

"Favourite colour?"

"Blue and green"

"Favourite food?"

"Every food"

Conner laughed and so did I at my answer before moving on to the next question "Favourite person in the hole world?" he said with a smirk.

"Ohh that's a hard one but I would have to go with Jc.

"What?!" he said faking looking offended.

"Hahaha I win!" Jc said popping into view of the camera.

"I'm just kidding I love all of you guys so far" I said kissing conner's check.

After we were done the video we all sat on the couches and we all got to know each other so now they practically know everything about... well there's not much too know so.... yeah.

I went to my room and sat on my bed my notifications went crazy on my laptop and phone. it was all comments from youtube,Instagram,Facebook and so on.

I read some of the comments and they were nice like the one that said 'you look so much like conner I'm so happy right now i could cry :')!' but then they started to get mean and worse to the point were there were death threats.

One said 'I hope they take you back you ugly worthless little bitch'
I felt a sting in my eyes but held the tears back I went to Instagram and the same thing was there hate and death threats and the same with Facebook.

I slammed my laptop closed and put it on my desk and I threw my phone in my bean bag chair.

I grabbed my traveling bag and went to the wash room I took out my razor and looked at it while it lied in my hand I then lifted it up to my wrist and slide about 10 times before I felt dizzy so I stopped and rinsed my razor and wrist and put every thing away and put on my bracelets on.

I walked out of my room and the first thing I saw was all the wonderful art supplies on my desk.

I grabbed a drawing note book and a fine tipped pencil and sat on my balcony and looked at the beautiful forest in front of me with the sun high above it to give it the wonderful summer colours.

I drew what more than the eye could see, I drew my emotions, a story that only I could tell, I drew freedom and hope.

"Ugh I suck at drawing!" I said after closing the book at lightly putting it on the floor next to me.

I went into my room grabbed my guitar and walked back out onto the balcony and sat down.

When I was little my dad taught me and Isaac how to play piano, guitar and drums.

I held the guitar close to me and looked out over the trees and into the beautiful blue sky and began to strum to human by: Christina Perrie.

"I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days if
That's what you want, be your
Number one"

I paused and let a single tear fall.

"I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask, give you all
I am"

"I can do it"

I looked up from the guitar and into the most beautiful view ever.

"But I'm only human and I bleed when I fall down, I'm only human and I crash and I break down"

"Your words in my head, knives in my heart you build me up and then I fall apart 'cause I'm only human' "

I paused and looked down and let more tears fall and strummed harder.

"I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I could hold the weight of the world
If that's what you need, be your everything"

"I can take so much 'til I've had enough'...."