This Can't be Real..

chapter 34

(June's POV)

i stared out the window watching the rain fall, i love when it rained. as i was looking out the window something caught my eye, a young girl and her father walking down the street playing in the rain. it reminded me so much of when i was little and me and my father would run around in the rain playing the tickle monster game. those were the times i didn't realize how much i had until they were all taken away. i wish i cherished those moments or taken the time to embrace what i had, i wish i had a chance to say a proper goodbye...

my life is so screwed up, I'm so selfish. no one cares no one will ever care their acting for the fame or something because who in the right mind would want to love someone that's broken? i hate myself im ugly! fat worthless I'm so stupid to think life could ever be right! their coming for you and there's nothing you can do to stop them your already dead....

i felt a tear fall down my cheek and wiped it away quick so no one would see it, i haven't told any one about what i saw when the accident happen i saw Isaac but he looked different but in a good way he looked happier and like he didn't have a worry in the world, i miss him so much. i picked up his necklace and rubbed it. i still pray to him every night and of cores my mom,dad and the baby. i miss them so much its not fair how they had to die, if i had died it would save every ones time. no one knows about the hate I'm getting nor do they know that i cut.

It's for the better If they didn't...

(Ariana's POV)

me and cam were talking but i couldn't focus i was worried about June after the accident she hasn't been the same, i need to find out whats wrong with her and if i cant get it out of her I'm sure mahogany can, when that girl wants something she knows how to get it.

the other reason why couldn't focus is last night Hayes and i skyped and he asked me out on a date but he wont tell me were he just said 'its a secret'. i cant wait i wonder if June and mahogany can help me get ready.

i was taken out of my thoughts when Cameron said something that threw me off guard "wait,what?" i said staring at him wide eyed.

"i said did u and Hayes you know... do it yet" Cameron said with a worried expression but a little smirk "eww Cameron no why would u ask that, your such a boy!" i whisper yelled at him and couldn't help but let a slight blush creep up onto my face.

"good because i would have to kill him" Cameron let out a deep breath and started to chuckle and i join in.

soon we arrived at the hotel it was pretty big we got our luggage and made our way to the lobby were we checked in. me and June were in the same room #283 Bart book a hole floor for us so we would all be neighbours.

we got in the elevator and there was a awkward silence and it was quit annoying so i started up a conversation "soo... June how did u sleep" i said awkwardly tapping my foot. she didn't say anything it look like she was lost in her own world "um June?" Cameron said tapping her shoulders "y-yes" she said snapping her self back to reality.

"i asked how you slept" 

"oh um fine you?" she asked with a kind smile and her green eyes had that sparkle to it even threw everything that has happen she always has that sparkle.

"well i slept amazing i had a dream about one directions tour bus broke down in front of our house and Lima fell in love with me" i sighed wish this dream were real.

"what about Hayes?" cam asked while laughing 

"oh yeah him.. him too" i said while laughing my self June just stood there confused "June whats wrong?" i asked.

the elevator dinged letting us know that were on our floor we walked out and started to look for our room once we found it we walked in and found mahogany dancing with her ear phones in already un-packed 

me and June just stood their giggling, i walked up to mahogany and tapped on her shoulder witch scared her and fall on the floor "ugh how much did you guys see" umm not much just you trying to pull off some sort of moon walk " i said laughing 

"and i might of got that all on tape" June said laughing  " so you guys didn't see me trying to twerk" mahogany asked with a worried expression 

"wait,what!?" me and June asked at the same time.

"nothing" mahogany said with a smirk "okayy... now were past that Ariana whats a one direction?" June said with a weird face and i swear right there i wanted to slap her!

"WHAT!" me and mahogany said at the same time me and mahogany looked at each other with a smirk plastered to our faces then we looked back at June.

"oh god" is all she said before running out the room as fast as she can 

"get her!" i said before we ran after her.