I pulled my shorts down looking at my phone as I waited for somebody to open the door.
I left my key here when I dropped Sammy's drunk ass off that night a while ago so I have no key anymore.
Derek opened the door smiling.
"so you forgave me?"
"I wasn't mad at you..." I said walking in
"Good " he said slapping my ass
I gasped hitting him.
"Don't ever do that again!" I yelled hitting him
"Bu-"
"I wasn't mad but we're not together Derek...and don't say you let Sammy di that before we were dating because Sammy was and is my best friend"
" I wouldn't kiss my bestfriend"
"What?"
"I saw you last night?...what does he have that I don't?"
"you sound like Sierra...but I'll tell you...he knows me more an you...he is my bestfriend...and he was my boyfriend...not that any of at is your business who I kiss or not..."
"We're friends...can I kiss you?"
"No Derek!"
"See..."
"SAMMYS DIFFERENT OKAY!...don't...don't try to make me feel bad for wanting to kiss Sammy and not you...you and Sammy have different situations...I stopped liking you last fucking year..."
" I thou-"
"I didn't kiss back Derek I'm sorry but I don't feel that way about you anymore" I said walking away to the studio where Sammy and Dillon were.
"Theree she is" Dillon said pointing at me
"Hey" I sighed.
"What's wrong?" Sammy asked looking at me concerned
"I feel bad...Derek likes me and I don't feel the same but I think he like reaaally likes me" I said plopping down next to Sammy.
" look he'll get over it...don't feel bad" Sammy said squeezing my thigh
I smiled looking at him.
He looked back at me then my lips before I leaned in kissing him forgetting Dillon was even 4 feet from us.
"Eh EHM Derek at 3 o'clock" Sammy clapped making us pull away acting like we weren't kissing as Derek walked in the room
"Can we join?" Derek asked looking at me when a girl popped up behind him
"Sure" Dillon shrugged "we're just messing around but okay" Dillon said looking at us
Derek walked in with that girl under his arm looking at me
I don't care...he's trying really hard...
I got up and sat next to Dillon laughing.
"You weren't joking" he whispered laughing
"I know..." I giggled looking behind us at Derek but my attention went to Sammy
He felt me looking at him because he looked up and smiled winking.
I bit my lip turning back to the soundboard.
I don't really want a relationship...
But even though he really impacted my life...I reaaaally wanna be held my him and kissed at every moment by him...I crave him...I crave his hands wrapped around my waist squeezing my ass...and oh do I miss the way he said he loved me while we had sex...his deep and soft whispers...it just rang through my ears...it always made me feel much better...the way he sucked on my neck leaving marks on my neck and chest...the face he would make when I left the room at any point...I miss the way he would look at me and admire me for no reason...we'd just be sitting on the couch or in our rooms and he'd just be watching me...smiling...or biting or licking his lips...it made me go crazy...
I picked up my phone texting him.
- Dinner tonight?
He looked up at me smiling and nodded.
Excited? That's an understatement.
