"You look tired...you okay baby?" Sammy asked as we sat and ate breakfast.
"I am...I need you to eat my ass" I joked holding my hand on my head
"Are you serious?" He asked
"No about eating my ass...but I am still tired...and my head hurts...Audrey and Alexis had me out all night looking for dresses because the one I wanted wasn't there anymore..." I pouted
"Awwe" he said holding my hand.
" yea it's whatever..." I shrugged
"Did you really like that one?" He asked rubbing his thumb across my hand
" yea...a lot but I'm sure I can find a different one" I said fixing my glasses
"Ok..." He said "I love you baby" he said
I smiled looking at him
"I love you too" I bit my lip blushing
"Like with all my heart...and I wanna be the best I could ever be for you...and future editors to come...because you're...I can't even explain how much...how much happiness you brought to my life...you're the best thing to ever happen to me baby...and I want you to know that" he said
I smiled tearing up.
"Awe baby don't cry" he said wiping his tears with his thumb
"You just...you make me so happy too...and I can hardly speak right now...I...I'm so happy you're gonna be the man I marry...you're truly the one Sammy" I said covering my face
"Cmere" he said pushing his seat back
I got up and sat on his lap burying my head into his neck.
"You're mine...and we're gonna be the best young married couple ever...I promise" he said rubbing my thigh
"I'm inlove with you " I said
"I'm inlove with you too"
*
Currently tryin on more dresses that I don't like...it makes me sad...
I took the dress off and shook my head sitting in the dressing room.
Alexis walked in and looked at me confused.
"What's wrong baby sis"
"I don't love any if them...and I'm nervous...what if Sammy changes his mind...our wedding is in less than 2 months A...and I still haven't found a damn dress..."
She sighed rubbing my back.
"First of all...Sammy is not gonna change his mind...he's inlove with you and damn sure ready for this...and second of all we have time...you'll find it...if we have to make a special June for you we will"
"Won't that take months?"
" you're right..." She sighed
"He'll just call it off I hate this!...I'm so tired...I'm stressed...I can't do this" I said breathing hard and crying
"He won't call it off Ari...he...h-"
"Yes he will Alexis...I'm a mess...who would marry that...who?!...I try to look happy...I try...but I'm only happy around him...but once...once he's away...I feel likes shit...I...I feel broken...I just wanna end it all"I cried
"What do you mean?" She asked
"I wanna...I don't wanna do this anymore...I love Sammy...I love everything about him...I love how happy he can make me...but my life...it...it's not working...I hate my life...I want to die...I don't want to be here" I cried
