Played (Malec, Shadow Hunter fan fiction)

CHAPTER 6

Over the next three weeks

ALEC'S P.O.V

I don't think that I could every tell Magnus how much that kiss meant to me in the beginning. The kiss motivated me in a whole new way and I was actually excited to do things during the day because it meant spending time with the love of my life and that was always the best part. I couldn't help but love doing everything with him, even if it is theropy and want to kick him out. He brings out the best in me and that's what has been helping me in these past months. It's still hard to eat but I'm getting better physically. I feel discouraged a little because my nightmares haven't left they've only grown in strength. I loved when Magnus ran his fingers through my hair, it helped keep me calm but I could help but feel a bit homesick even through I couldn't even handle the thought going back now. Magnus shifted causing me to groan, "Sorry, sweetheart." Magnus mumbled, "I thought that you'd be Hungary since you haven't eaten any things yet." He picked up a small bowl that smelled like chicken noddle soup. The mer smell make my mouth water, I smiled and tried to sit up on my own but failed. Causing Magnus to help me. This put me into a further depressed mood, knowing that I can't do anything for myself really. Magnus had me try to feed myself but try after try it still didn't work and I think he could tell I was getting frustrated so he spoon fed me. After that we had a pretty laid back day consisting of talking, watching movies, and for me sleeping.

Jace's P.O.V
I had walked up to the training room to get some practicing done, but when I entered Max was in there training super hard. I could still see his bones even through I was a distance away. I clenched my fist in hatred towards the demon. He took everything from Max. Max hadn't really smiled since the day he was taken, he trains and helps to try and locate Alec. I think that he feels responsible for leaving Alec with that demon, it wasn't his choice but I still think that he feels bad. Those things then add on the nightmares that only seem to be getting worst as each night he wakes up the whole institute with his screaming and crying, calling out for his older brother. I still can't wrap my head around it. Alec has been missing for almost 3 years and I can feel him sometimes through our bond but a good portion of the time I can't feel him at all. The worst was when he was first taken, the rune would sting every time he was tortured so I could feel a little bit of what he was feeling and at times I wished that he was died because that pain was so great for me that I calasped and if I was only feeling a little bit of that pain I couldn't imagine what Alec was feeling. I watched as Max continued with the training until he got to Alec's bow and arrow that was laying where Alec had left it three years ago, Max just fell down to the floor crying. At this time I walked in and sat down by him, "Hey, buddy" I mumbled, when he didn't answer I continued, "you know I miss him so much too. We all do, I like to think that he escaped after you and is just trying to find a way back to us." MAx looked up tears eyed at me, "R-Really?" I gave him a small smile, "Yeah, I haven't felt any pain from the rune in almost a year in a half." I lied through my teeth. Max looked up at me and smiled, "Thanks Jace! Now I know that I have to practice even harder and get stronger." "Remember to eat in that game plan of yours." I reminded him. "Yeah, of course."  He went back to training and I went down into my room. Once I closed the door the tears that I'd been holding in broke out from the dam I created and were just continually flowing down my cheeks. I laid on my bed and cried really for the first time really hard. I cried for my missing brother, I cried for the pain my missing brother was going through, I cried for what Max went through, I cried for the reason that I might never see my brother again, I cried for myself and the lonely feeling that I've had since Alec was captured. I cried for the reason that Alec was just discovering who he was and now he would never get that chance. While I was crying I didn't here the door open or Clary walked up behind me until she placed a hand on my shoulder and just held me while I cried. I was so grateful that she didn't speak she just held me and let my cry for the first time in a really long time. I listened to her heart beat telling me that she was still here and hadn't disappeared like Alec had. I listened to her breathing and made mine match hers but that only kept me crying. I couldn't  bring myself together and when I tried to convey that Clary just shushed me and told me that every one in a while it's okay to cry.

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-Bai