Played (Malec, Shadow Hunter fan fiction)

Chapter Eleven

Jace P.O.V
When I woke up the following morning, I found Alec still asleep on my chest. I looked at the clock in his room and found that it was close to noon. I looked at his face while he slept. The deep purple under his eyelashes were still noticeable still even though he was asleep. There were scars that were also noticeable more in this different angle than when he is standing. I wished that I could have been able to help him, but now that he is allowing me to tell mom and Iz maybe that will help him open up and be able to help with ways of coping. As soon as he wakes up and I see him doing okay, I would be returning back to New York and telling mom and Iz what happened and what is going on. I plan on telling them and than getting them ready to see Alec before I actually bring them here to see him. I know that this is going to be really hard for them to hear and for Alec knowing that he won't have this safe little place to hide away in with his memories.
    It was about two hours later, before Alec even started stirring. He than took about 20 more minutes before opening his eyes. When he opened his eyes, he smiled up at me and mumbled something that I could not make out, "What did you say?" Alec mumbled it again but I still could not understand him. I slowly sat up so that he could move with me and so that he could keep his comfortable position while I was sitting up. "How many hours do you sleep a night?" Alec moved his head slightly so that he could be heard. "I only sleep about one hour each night but than in the day I get about two half and hour naps in each day." He said perfectly without any stutters. I smiled at that, but knew that once he woke up more, the stutter that he had would return. "What time is it?" He asked, sleep still heavy in his voice, "It'a almost noon." His mouth made an almost perfect O, and than stretched, "I don't think that I have gotten this good of sleep since I got taken." I noticed how he said taken and not kidnapped. Mentioning it must bring back memories that he wants to forget. I watched as he stood and walked over to the closet in the room. He grabbed a pair of sweats and an old beat up sweater. When he started changing I did not make a sound knowing that he probably forgot that I was here.

    When he removed his shirt I saw that some of his bandages had fallen off and that there was no skin visible. All that was visible was the raw slashed skin. I saw his legs and how not one area did not carry scares- when he turned around I thought that he was going to have a heart attack. His eyes got wide and he started breathing rapidly. "Y-y-you s-saw me c-c-change?" He sat down against a wall and the water in his eyes started gathering. When I walked up to him and sat down by him and tried to make him look at me- he avoided my eye like they were demon-pox. I let out a sigh of frustration but that only seemed to trigger another wave of hyperventilation. It seemed only to get worst so I stood up and sat on the bed, "I'm sorry, it was not my intention to see you change you just started to and I thought that since we use to do that that you had become comfortable with me enough to change in front of. I am truly sorry that I did not ask." Alec slowly lifted his head but did not look up at me- he slowly stood and started walking to the door. He stood right in front of the door, "Alec do you want me to leave?" Alec's head shot up and shook it furiously, "N-n-no, You c-can-not l-l-leave me." Alec took one of my hands in his and started squeezing it. When he lifted his head- he had big tears gathering in his eyes "P-P-P-Please."
    I felt tears gather in my eyes, with emotion thick in my voice I responded, "I would never leave you behind. Alec you are my brother, my parabatai, I would never leave you behind and if I knew that you have been captured then I would have never let you out of my sight. You may not be able to protect me right now but that does not mean that I will not protect you. I will protect you until the day I die and you have family, friends, and Magnus to protect you and to love you too. You have so many people that love you and that want to protect you, okay?" Alec slowly looked up at me- he was pale and had tears in his eyes along with a small smile playing at the side of his lips. "O-okay." I slowly nodded, "Great now lets go and get some breakfast." I put my hand on the door and was about to open it but my hand was pushed away from the door handle, "No. Y-you said t-that y-you would- would not l-leave m-me." Tears once again gathered in his big, scare, and broken blue eyes. "Okay, okay, but Alec I was not leaving you. I was opening the door so that we can go and eat breakfast." I watched his eyes as things started to come together in his broken and scared mind. It took a few minutes before he opened his mouth and let out an "Oh" before letting go of my hand and waited for me to open the door. I slowly opened the door- kind of waiting to see if he forgets again but thankfully he does not and we start the slow and long walk upstairs to the kitchen for some breakfast.