I haven't slept in three days
Would you like to know why?
On Saturday I thought you killed yourself
That night all I did was cry
The nightmares will not leave my head
I wake up and I scream
I haven't had a goodnight sleep
And fuck, it's killing me
On Sunday I tried to slit my throat
I clutched the knife so tight
I shook like a leaf and took a deep breath
Although I didn't say goodbye
On Monday I drank coffee
I got dressed and put on a fake smile
I acted although everything was normal
Like I've done every day for awhile
Today I drank coffee
Covered my arms and faked a smile
If they knew I didn't feel normal
I don't think I'd still be alive
Tomorrow won't be any different
Though the lines will grow more thick
The scars I bare I will never show them
The scars will make them sick
I will hide it away
Like I must always do
"Don't let them in," she told me
"They will never love you,"
