Hurting by YOU

Third

We are at the gardens. I am looking at the sky as I expel a deep breathe. Looking at the sky, I feel envy to all the persons under the sky because they have freedom to do the things they want.

Unlike me

I am stuck in this palace with a man he doesn't even like me.

"Ano kaya ginagawa nila?" He said normally. I look on him as he's staring in the sky too.

He misses them so much.

I am here

I am here beside you

But, you see the people without here

The people you miss is there.... living in their lives

far far away.

Gabriel... if I am not beside you?

Will you miss me too?

I suppose you wouldn't.

"Stop staring me." He said, no expression.

I sighed as I washed out the awkwardness on me.

"Do you want to...." someone cut me.

"Your Highness, sorry for disturbing you." Peter cut me as he bow. I look at him and he stand straight.

"You need to go on your room,Princess Abby." He stated, politely.

"Why?" I asked

"Please. And you should be on your room by this time." He said.

Er...Monday pala ngayon. I stand up and turn around to him.

"Gabriel pasok muna ako. Monday pala ngayon." I said to him. He look at me and nod. I walked as Peter trailed me.

Without looking around, I see in the corner of my eyes the people stand up and bow on me.

"Princess,King Arthur sent you a letter." He told me as I arrived in front of my door.

"Okay. Leave me for a minute. I call you when we'll start." I said as I opened the door and closed it.

I saw the letter above my queen size bed.

I don't move where am I. I stare the letter.

I don't know why I am a bit nervous. It's normal, My father sent me a letter in the past month. This will be his fourth time to sent me.

Gabriel don't know about this.

I slowly walk and grab the letter. I walked to other side of my bed and sat down in floor and relax my back on my bed.

I started to read the letter.

It hurts...

I cried while I'm reading.

I heard a knock.

"Your Highness?"

"Come in"

I heard the door closed.

"I'm not feeling well today." I said to him.

"Yes your highness, I understand" he answered. I know he understand me. He's the one I am closed, his my servant but his my friend too.

I cried as I heard the door closed again.

"If you gonna be a Queen , will you be happy? Make a decision, my princess before it's too late."

Masyado akong naging matatag sa lahat.

Masyado akong malakas.

Lahat tinanggap ko Kahit Hindi tama.

Lahat lahat.

Kahit kinalimutan ko na ang sarili kong kaligayahan.

Wala naman na akong magagawa,Hindi ba?

Kundi tanggapin lahat ng ito.

Na dati na malabo Lang mangyari ang buhay kong ito.

Pero ngayon malinaw na malinaw na.

This is my life.

With a person I have feeling but he don't to me.

I should be happy,right?

But why I am not happy?

Why I am not contented, right now?

Even all the girls wishes this life.

Pero Bakit nararamdaman ko ngayon na mag-isa Lang ako?

I am alone.

Masyado akong matatag

Mahirap pala , kasi madali ka ring masaktan.

Siguro nga malakas ako Pero hindi ko pa rin tanggap ng buong puso

Kasi hanggang ngayon...

Hindi ako masaya...

Is it okay to be weak sometimes?

Do I need to make decision for myself... for him?