I really don't know what I'm doing.
I feel like life doesn't have a purpose anymore.
Well at least my life.
Because she was my life.
And it got taken away from me.
I don't want to keep feeling like this.
I feel like everything is pointless.
If she's not here to enjoy it then I can't.
She was my world.
Scratch that, my universe.
My everything.
She was the sun and I was the planets.
How could a universe go on without the sun?
How can I go on without my life?
I can't.
I just can't.
I know it's stupid to pull a Romeo and Juliet, but I can't stop thinking about it.
She hated the movie with Leonardo DiCaprio.
She thought Juliet was stupid.
How she waited until Romeo drank the poison to say something.
My mom always asked me if my friends jumped off a bridge would I jump too.
My answer was always no.
But sometimes you have to.
I locked myself in my room.
I looked at all the pictures of us together.
"Soon angel." I whispered.
I took out a sheet of paper.
I began to write.
Dear Mom,
Who would I be without you? You've been my rock ever since dad left. I'm so thankful for that. You raised me to be the person I am. I know this is hard on you. But you and Chris can get through this. Please tell him I love him. I know this is selfish of me. But I'm not the same. I'm never going to be the same. She was my universe. I can't bare to go on without her. I love you so much, momma.
Your boy,
Andrew Luis Ramos
