Sweep Me Off My Feet

Chapter 10: There I Said It

The beach?

I’m puzzled.

He walked all the way to the beach? And I followed him? Here I am huffing and puffing when I could have just taken my car..; I swear I care too much—

I paused where the side walk blends into sand. Where is he now?

I stepped onto beach turf, sand instantly filling my shoes. The wind started to pick up a little, whipping my hair around my face.

This is so breathtaking. This beach, the sky, the waves. Puffs of light grey clouds moved lazily along the vast sky. Lavender, magenta, and gold shades painted the sky. Wild palms were scattered here and there…what is this? His escape? His hide-out?

My eyes finally fell on him. Well his back really. He was just sitting there, on his bum, his knees drawn up to chest, his arms lightly resting on them. Those little almond shaped eyes of his I love, were focused to on the horizon. He looked like he was thinking hard.

I tippy-toed quietly near him. His voice got me off guard.

“Leave me alone.” He said, without even turning to look at me. I didn’t say a word.

“Look, if you came to rub it my damn face, you can just turn around and go, cause I honestly don’t wanna hear sh*t right now.” His voice was colder than the arctic circle.

I don’t why I stayed so quiet, but I took a seat next to him in the sand, pulling my legs up like his. I already know this is gonna ruin the tunic I’m wearing. It’s Samara’s too. Oh well, she’ll deal. This is sort of important.

I stared in the ocean, the waves were hypnotizing.

You know, I didn’t follow him for him to necessarily speak. I know you’re getting bored of my sap story but I’ve been through most of it. Arguments, cold shoulders. Lies, cruel words. I know it’s probably one of the worst feelings in the world.

It’s such a weird feeling. You feel betrayed. You just want to jump into a never ending abyss and forget about your existence. You just want to be alone but then again you don’t. You need the time alone to think, but actually being alone hurts too much.

Ray doesn’t need to talk to me. I know me being here is just about enough. Silence can be our mediator.

“I’m sorry— I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.” He said, after a good while. I looked up, this time to find those gorgeous brown eyes looking down on me. I opened my mouth to speak, but he shook his head; he wasn’t done.

“I’m sorry for not listening to all of you. Craig, Jacob, Trey— they all tried to tell me. I just thought they were hating. They always hate on my relationships, and I was sick of them and their input. Turns out they were right this time. Now look who got played?”

He sighed deeply, his eyes looked even softer as he directly addressed me.

“I’m sorry I didn’t believe you. For acting all cold towards you. Your book? I’m f*cking proud of you, and I’m sorry for acting like I didn’t care. Most of all, I’m sorry for blowing up on you and storming out that one night. Coming from the relationship you just left, I know that’s all you ever got from ‘him.’”

He looked away, thinking a little I guess.

“You probably think all guys are the same now, huh? That all we do and is yell and leave when we’re uncomfortable. Well I was trying to be different. And I let a dumb— a dumb female ruin that.”

Now I know he’s ready to vent, now that he’s mentioned her.

“Money? Here I thought she loved me. She has a way with words, sh*t. I really thought— damn. How could I fall for a b**** like that? She wanted my damn money. I wouldn’t have let the b**** have my child anyway, f*ck I look like?”