Jacob And Renesmee Book 1

Chapter 7

          My dad kissed the top of my head and then turned around and left. I was just so lost , confused. I guess this is how teenage girls feel. But they probably dont got all what i got going on. Its more like prom, boys, school. Things of that sort. Which i fine to be cruely unfair. But you cant help how you were born or what family you were born into.

          I sat on the porch for hours and hours. Waiting. Waiting on Jacob to come. I was to the point where i was believing  he would never show up. I was scared that he was scared that i knew something was up and that we probably had to talk. 

          I just sat on the porch, all day. It started to get dark. I did feel a little fear sitting out in the dark by myself. I was upset. Jacob hasnt shown up not once today. Im starting to doubt myself and whatever emotions i was having towards him. I was angry with him and with myself.

         I eventually go inside and go to my room. Just to sit there and think more and more abiht everything . Having everything going on i haven't ate, or slept . Tonight was a bad night.  I  in frony my window in a chair snd just stared blankly outside. All night long till the sun came up.

       Still in my daze out the window , i hear a knock on my door. Its early morning now . Im just hoping it isnt one of mt parents just trying to make me feel better with conversation of their wisdom. Im not in the mood to listen to that.

          I didnt move , i didnt flinch. Nothing. I sat still and let whoever come in just walk right in. But to my suprise it was the person that made me feel this . Stuck , like i was paralyzed all night long . In this blue , uncomfortable computer chair. 

            " Ness." Jacob says . Just standing up behind me. I could see a very faint reflection of him in the window. My face and body stayed still. Didnt move an inch.

         "Im sorry. I just had to think of a way to tell you. Your dad told me what you were thinking. I wasnt prepaired for this speech yet. I thought we had a little more time. " he says , very nervously. 

       I still didnt move , but i did speak. My voice has a lot of anger in it. I could tell he knew by the way his body reacted. Like he never seen me as angry as i am now.
 
        " well it would be better for me to understand you if i knew what the hell you were talking about !" I say,  almost screaming it. Im trying to stay as calm as i can . But ut is difficult. 

      " thats why i am here now. I figured it out." He says pulling a seat up next to me.

    " well then get on with it. Maybe i wont have to be angry anymore." I say . Trying my best to put this wall down that i sat up all night Building as i got more and more angry with him. 
 
         " so when you were born , i imprinted on you. Which makes you my soul mate . Doesnt necessarily mean that we would be together as a couple . Just means i wouldnt leave your side even if you pushed me away." He says .
 
   This time i do move and swift my chair around so now I'm looking at him . Face to face. He tenses up a little bit. But continues to go on.

            " and i believe that you feel the same way as i do. So now that feeling , it will never go away.  You will always be in love with me no matyer how mad or how hard you to try not be.  I wasnt ready to explain thus to you because i just thought it wasnt time. Then the other night , the look . It frightened me because i was prepared. " he says . He seems less tense now .

         I just stare at him . Hes waiting for my response.  But in all reality. Thr little that i do have in this world. Im speechless.