Jacob And Renesmee Book 1

Chapter 8

        I look at Jacob.  Almost blankly for a while. I could feel the nervousness come off of him. He wanted so badly for mw to speak. This was something i wasnt ready for it expecting.  I thought it for sure would have been something different. Nothing like this .

        I was so speechless . I had to say something though. I couldnt just leave him wondering. And just starring at me. I turned away to look out the window for a second to collect my thoughts.  He had not once took his eyes off me after he told me.

       But the only i could come up with to say  was a question.  Things like this i need more answers to. This is all new to me. Hes been educated on this his whole life.  Its his culture.  Not  mine. But i guess now i am apart of it. After a moment of starring out the window , thinking . I just turned to him and asked.

         " so now what? What does thus mean for me ? For us ? For you?" I ask . And his nervousness slightly goes away. But i can tell he still is a little bit.  I would be too and i kind of am .

    He rubs his head. And just looks up at me . Right in my eyes , with his puppy dog eyes. And says " we can be together. Take it how ever you want , as slow as you want,  as fast as you want."

       I just look at him and for a moment its like now it all makes since this is what i was ment for . This is why i was even born. To be with and too always love Jacob black. I eventually smiled and i could feel the both of us being relieved. But now we have to get on with a real discussion. 

        " im ready to be your boyfriend.  As long as your ready to be my girlfriend!" He says . Hes all happy and i feel like he feels different now. Like he doesnt have to hold this big secert from me or hold his self back as much as he use to have to .

         I just look at him, i blush.  I could feel my cheeks get as warm as he naturally is. Im nervous,  taken back and not sure of what to say. All though i wouldnt mind being the vampire girl with a werewolf girl friend .

       I turn to him and just  smile . "Yes jake." Is what i said. And that's all i needed to say. It may seem like i rushed into it. But really , i have known hin my whole life. Hes been my bestfriend fron the beginning.  So it wasnt totally awkward  or weird. Things are different now . But i was ready to take on the task !

         " i want to take it slow though. My whole life had been nothing but fast pace. And for me to have 1 humanly type thing. Is a blessing and i want to cherish every second i can of it. " i say .

      "Ok." He says as he smiles and  nods.

      I feel a tad bit different,  likr this wright has been lifted of my shoulders. I feel free. More free then i ever been . Maybe this is what i have been waiting for. Maybe this was what was holding me back making me feel like i was dragging something heavy along and i never knew what it was . Life couldnt be more amazing then this moment.

         But i still had the fear of the vampire guy coming along at some point.  My dad said he wojldnt let it hurt me. But you never put the fear of someone hunting you  at ease , until  they are gone . Gone for good.