Safekeeping (Jumin x Reader)

20: Confession

His silence allowed you to begin your monologue.

"I know I don't have much right to say this, but I just want to know if you have any intentions with me. I know you rescued me without any, other than giving me my life back, but I'm afraid that I didn't account for what could happen. I don't have a job. I'm not going to school. I'm just a drain on your finances and I know I should leave."

"Bu--" Jumin began to protest. You held up your hand to stop him.

"But I can't. I can't leave you. I think about you all the time and I love being here. I miss you when you're gone all day. I just desperately want to be around you. And as much as I don't want to admit it, I'm jealous of your friend. I'm jealous of the affection you both share and I can't help but say that I wish I had such a thing. After the years that I spent away from anyone who cared about me or who I cared about, I just want to be around you. I care about you. And I don't know if I should just leave, or if you're trying to tell me to go, or if I'm just imagining things..."

You were pacing next to Jumin's bed as you spoke. Suddenly, he hand reached out and grabbed your wrist.

"Jumin!"

Suddenly you were pulled off of your feet and onto Jumin's scantily clothes body.

"Don't go, YN. Please." He held you closely against his body, relishing in your smell and the feeling of your body pressed against his. "I need you."

"O-Oh..." You blushed at the big monologue that you had just given for apparently no reason. "Does that mean you're going to break-up with..."

"We were never together. I already told him. I just want you." Jumin blushed as well. "Just... accept me. I've loved you since I first set eyes on you. I've never met anyone so beautiful. I just want to take care of you. You're not anything near a burden to me. I want to know you. That's why I try so hard to find you favorite ice cream, to buy you clothes that you like, to cook you meals you enjoy."

"How could I not accept you, Jumin?!" You smiled and buried your face into his bare chest. "I've never been so happy! I just love being around you. You're funny and caring. Sweet and compassionate. Nothing could compare to being near you."

"I, too, am incredibly happy. But before I can allow you to accept my love with all of my heart, I'm afraid I do need to tell you about something in my past."

You looked up at him, wondering what it could possibly be.

"I... I had another woman that I loved before I met you."

"Do you... still want to be with her?" You asked gently, afraid of the answer.

"No, she killed herself."

"Oh, I'm sorry to hear."

"No. I am the one who should be sorry. It was my fault. It was my first relationship, and she allowed me to be selfish. And I became overbearing. I became a monster."

Your forehead wrinkled with worry. Jumin lovingly smoothed the wrinkles away as he continued.

"I tracked her every move. I made this place a cage for her. I had an actual cage. At first, she asked me for it. She asked me to treat her as preciously as I could. But it wasn't love. I was possessive and frightening. And one day I came home to her body on my driveway. She had jumped from the top story."

You rubbed his face as well, trying to decrease his stress.

"I was a monster who kept a human captive. So after all of that, I vowed to spend whatever money I could to help others who were kept captive. And that's how I met you. And as much as I don't want to say this to you, I completely understand if you want to leave. If you feel unsafe, I will understand."

You stayed quiet for a long time, not quite sure how to feel. But you knew that you had also once been something of a monster, yet you had changed. So Jumin should be allowed to do the same.

"I suppose it's my turn to tell you that I also just want you. People can change. So I can accept you. I want to accept you. I think... I think we can be good together."

And for the rest of the evening, you both stayed that way.