The Nerd with the Dangerous Secret

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My mind was buzzing and swirling making it exetremly diffuicult for me to focous during my afternoon lesson, I even got told to go stand outside by one of the teachers as I was being a distraction for her and everybody else

By the time the final bell went for the day I almost missed it because of how many thoughts were swirling around my head causing a throbbing sensation in the back of it making my feel dizzy 

I dont even know how I manage to make it to Masons car because the world seemed to be spinning around and around and around making me stumble a couple of steps before I ragain my balance by holding onto something solid and firm

"Connors are you alright you look pale and slightly green like you're going to throw up?" The voice was distorted and washy like a off tuned radio that hadnt been tuned in a while. I try to move my head in reply but I couldnt it suddenly felt heavy like it had an achor on it that was pulling it down

Black spots start to dance their way across my vision

"Shit, alright Mace your having a panic attack , just breath in out in out" The voice was getting more and more far away like it wasn't even there anymore I could barely even make out where I was anymore

I want to throw up

My head bends down and I squat down suddenly bile rises in my throat and I retch and it all comes out splattering on the parking lot ground and all over someone's  shoes I'm about to apologize but don't get the chance too

Before I'm completely submerged my darkness

....

My eyes spring open and I move my hand up to my forehead and I feel something cool resting on my forehead, I'm confused as to what is happening and how I got here but then it all comes back to me at full force making me gasp

Fray. . .He knows about the street fighting. . .

"Hey" A voice says and it takes me a second to figure out, who it was "How you feeling?" She asked and I shrugged before trying to sit up but failing horribly and slumping back into the sheets. Mason strides over and grabs my hand using his other hand to support my elbow as he pulls me up and then he lets go and sits next to me   

I look towards my mom and nodded "I think I'm good but I'm not sure, I haven't had a serious  panic attack in over a year" I say to her and her frown deepens and I know what question she is going to ask next

But before she does Mason cuts in and askes it for her "Do you remember anything before that or what might have triggered it" 

Here it is, the million dollar question

I draw a shaky breath watching as my hands begin to tremble again, Mom doesn't notice but Mason does and places his hands atop of mine and squeezes it trying to stop me from having another full on panic  attack "T-today at lunch F-fray told me something t-that s-s-shook me up" 

"Mace I need you to tell me what he said" Mason tells me softly whispering into my temple and I shook my head the anxiety creeping back into my head, he was silent for a moment or two before realisation hit him and he shook his head a pissed look crossing his features "He figured out the secret didn't he and that's why people were looking at you oddly didn't he?"

I shook my head once again "No he doesn't know about Gracelyn just that I do street fighting" before I add "But everyone else doesn't know just him!" I curl my fist in anger and rapidly over and over punch a nearby pillow 

Mason swiped the pillow from my arms with one hard tug, even though I am stronger than what I was a year ago and stronger then most people, if he needed to be he could be stronger than him "and all the looks that you were getting were out of jealousy because Fray hung out with you instead of them"

"I suppose but I never gave him a chance I was out of that room faster than he could ever explain and why would girls be jealous of me?" I turned towards  Mason almost completely forgetting my mom was in the room

"But, don't you see the girls are jealous of you because of how amazing you are and the fact that most of the girl's in that school are catty especially when you used to hang out with me they used to be extremely jealous they couldn't understand why I would hang around a beautiful girl like yourself" He says and a thousand butterflies erupt into the pit of my stomach, I knew I shouldn't like him in that way considering how messy things got the last time but I cant help it

I manage to keep the lovesick grin off my face "Thank you" I whisper to him leaning into him, the stress of the day finally catching up to me and I just wanted support and even though we haven't exactly seen eye to eye in the last year I know that, whatever I need, Mason will always be there in my darkest times

"No problem, and I promise we will sort this out and we will live a happily ever after with our daughter just you wait and see" He tells me softly rubbing circles on my back to calm me down

"We will, I know we will because I have you" I whisper into his shoulder and even though I couldn't see him I knew he was smiling at my words

"So sorry to interrupt this moment but I think Macy needs to rest" My mom says making me spin my head around to look at her I had forgotten she was there but her eyes were full of corcern towards me

"Yeah get some sleep Connors" He chuckled kissing my temple and left leaving me with more butterflies than ever