Kissing on my tattoos {BOOK 1}

Chapter 12

August looked at me shocked

"a baby? where is she?"

I looked down

"in heaven"

"wait what the fuck do you mean in heaven? you got an abortion!?"

august began to step away from me.

"no!, you know I'd don't believe in abortions"

I mumbled

"then what?"

august asked more irritated than before

"I had a miscarriage, it was my fault. I didn't know I was 3 months pregnant. the fact that I was told I couldn't have kids when I was younger I wasn't able to support myself and the baby. A few days after I found out I was pregnant I started taking prenatals but i was allergic to the medicine in it, the last thing I remembered was blacking out and when I woke up, about 6 months later my mom was crying and they said I went in labor while in a coma. they also said the baby wouldn't make it past the night they brought me her and she seemed fine, I tried calling you but your number was disconnected. I called your mom and she said she kicked you out. august I stayed up all night hoping and praying for our daughter to live, for her to see life and stay, stay with me. she lived through that night, they took her during the day so they could medicate me and her. They gave me her again that night around 10. I was playing with her and she was grabbing my finger. all of a sudden, she just was stiff, frozen with the smile still on her face. her monitor started beeping I tried CPR but it wouldn't work."

I fell to my knees crying, gasping for air.

"It was never my intention to end her life. I held her dying body, no one knew the way I felt no one. that's why I didn't want to tell you"

I looked up at august and he was pouring tears. he stood there motionless then he walked close to me and sat down across from me he didn't speak, he just sat there.

after a while he looked up and spoke.

" why, why didn't you tell me when you saw me. when we were in the bar"

"it was the first time I saw you in years, it was too soon"

I said

"BUT IF YOU DIDN'T ACCIDENTALLY CALL ME I STILL WOULDN'T KNOW RIGHT?"

august yelled

"RIGHT!?"

august said while grabbing me.

I jerked away from him,

"I would have, I just didn't know when august believe me"

at that moment he got up and got into his car, leaving me on the ground. I turned around and watched him speed away.

______________________(August POV)_________________________________________

Damn man, why did she keep shit like that from me? what did I do to deserve to be lied to. I didn't know she was pregnant we only had sex once, maybe twice, three times at the most. But she said she was on the pill, she lied to me. our kid died because of her stupid ass actions, if she was allergic to the fuckin' pills why the fuck did she take them? because she's stupid and was only thinking for herself... not for two. let me pull up to this bar for a while, clear my mind.

___________________________________________________________________________________________(Inside the bar)_______________________________________________

"Give me 6 bottles of vodka, no salt, no cups, just the vodka."

I told the waitress

"coming right up"

she turned and stuck her flat ass out like I was interested. the fuck I look like being interested in hoes. what? so I can get her pregnant too? mane this female needs to hurry with the drinks.

"TODAY! I'D LIKE MY SHIT TODAY!"

I signalled her to hurry up with my bottles.

when she brought them to me I immediately opened the first bottle and chugged. It burned my throat a little considering I ain't drunk anything in a while, Alisha wanted me to stop. but just like she hides shit from me I'm hiding this from her. maybe this too.

"hey can we join"

two light skin, big booty twins came up to me. they had long black hair and tight shorts on, lord forgive me but I might be sinning tonight.

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-----------------------(Alisha's POV)---------------------------------------

It's been an hour since august left I hope he isn't doing anything stupid. once he left I just got into my car and drove to the park. I sat there on the bench and cried. crying reminiscing on how my daughter looked, how she sound, how cold she was when she died. It's something you'd never want to experience,I didn't want to go back to that night and august has to understand that.

I got up and started walking down the path, I parked my car a few miles away because I'm about to go to a bar and get a little buzz to take my mind off of things.

As soon as I walk in I see august in the far left corner, he was knocked out and two girls were trying to pick pocket him. I didn't known any other reaction but to pounce on the one with her hands in his pants. I ran to her and banged her head to the other one then I repeatedly punched her over and over. the twin ran before I could catch her but I made sure to beat her sister enough for the both of them.

when I got off the sister she laid unconscious in a pool of her own blood. I grabbed August and put his arm around me, we walked out of the bar and began our walk 2 miles to my car. I would have got in his but his damn tires were slashed.

by the time we got to the car and I started driving off august turned to me

"baaaabe, baby, ma, you gon' ignore me like that"

he slurred his words as he spoke.

"hellooooooo"

august waved his hand in front of my face.

"AUGUST STOP"

I moved his hand and he punched me in the shoulder

"don't touch my damn hand"

August slouched his shoulders and looked forward

I played it off like it didn't hurt but my arm was throbbing and my left eye started tearing up, then my right. I drove faster in fear that he'd hit me again. when we got to the house I opened the door and helped him up the stairs, into the room, and onto the bed. I took off his shoes, jacket, shirt and socks, then I pulled the covers over him.

I went to take a shower, after that I put on one of Augusts' shirts and brushed my teeth. I went to tie my hair up and then I laid in bed next to August, he was sleep, mouth wide open. I couldn't sleep because after the day we had sleep isn't possible.