Dear Anonymous,

To: My December Valentines

December 6
Dear Anonymous,

To the person whose laugh is like sunshine. Who makes me smile and cry. To someone I trust even if I seem doubtful. The one who introduced me to new worlds I never could have dreamed of. This is for the person who reassures me that it's going to be okay. To the person who cared when others didn't.

I love you.

I love you because you help keep me sane. Some nights I go completely off the handle. I cry until I can no longer breathe. I cry so hard that I throw up. But somehow you manage to calm me down with a few simple text messages. A few simple songs. A few simple stories. As far as I'm aware, when this happens, you don't know the full extent of the situation. I mostly seem to come off as upset over the phone, but in reality I'm having a mental breakdown. You help me feel calm. I don't know what I would do without you. So thank you for keeping me grounded, making me laugh, and for being my friend when no one else cared.

To the boy who reminded me that sometimes you have to sacrifice things for the people you love. The boy who worries me sick but always puts others first. The boy who made me reevaluate the characteristics of true friendship. This is for the boy who puts a smile on everyone else's face but his own.

I love you.

I love you because of how much you love others. You would ask so many questions when we first met. You did everything you could to understand how I saw the world. You compliment people when they're self conscious. You are aware of your actions and how they could affect people. You are the most caring person I know. Despite all of this, people still give you a hard time. Some of my old friends were absolutely horrible to you. That's when I realized you were more important than the people I called my friends at the time. I've never made a better decision than the day I decided to be your friend because you are more important to me than they could ever be. Just please take care of yourself and know how much your friends love you. Thank you for helping me fix my toxic relationships, I don't know how to repay you.

To the girl who is impossible to describe in words. The girl who never fails to make me feel important, like I'm a priority for once. This is for the girl who creates the most amazing worlds in her mind, who finds joy in the simplest things, and taught me to stop and look around at the world once and awhile.

I love you.

I love you because you notice the little things in life. I've never had a friend like you. You find words fascinating and beautiful. You notice the slightest things. If someone is having a bad day, you're the first one to realize. You describe everything as if you were describing a precious gem. Your face lights up every time you talk about something you love. You make my heart skip beats because you become so lost in how beautiful the world is. Thank you for completely changing my view of the world. I no longer associate the world with sound, because of you everything's in ultraviolet rays, and I love it.

Sincerely,
Me