A/N: And the next one.
This studio session goes a lot better than the last one. We manage to get the song recorded pretty well. We’ll have another try next time but it sounds like it might be alright. Our manager Ben is pleased with us and tells us we should go and do something fun. ‘Ok, how about we go and get food and then have a night out?’ ‘Awesome idea Scott!’ We all start heading to our cars and Mitch grabs me in the corridor. ‘Avi. Whatever you and Kirstie do is up to you but if you hurt her I’ll kill you.’ He’s mostly joking but there is a slight seriousness in his eyes that tells me that even though he’s my friend he’d pick her side over mine any day. I don’t blame him for trying to look out for her. ‘You know I’d never hurt her right?’ ‘Of course I do. Maybe I should be more worried about your feelings than hers.’ He winks at me as he walks over to link his arm with Scott’s.
So he’s worked it out. That I like her. More than she likes me. Scott could see it too even if he didn’t know the whole story. Kevin’s completely in the dark in spite of him being my best friend. I don’t think she knows. I really hope she doesn’t. It would just complicate things. I don’t know when I started feeling this way. I think it was when she was last seeing someone. Before that it had never bothered me. If we were single then we would have sex and that was nice and if we weren’t then that was fine too. I never minded. But that time I wanted her to break up with him so much. I was unbelievably jealous that he got to be with her when I couldn’t.
As soon as they broke up a few weeks ago she turned up at my apartment at three in the morning. She didn’t speak, she didn’t cry she just kissed me and pushed me into my bedroom. Neither of us said a word and the only noises were our moans and the slight creaks of the bed underneath us. It lasted longer than normal. We both took our time with each other and it took on an unusual heaviness. It felt important. She held me tighter than normal in her arms and I let myself pretend that it meant something more than her needing someone to help her forget about him. When I came it was intense enough that I couldn’t move at all for a couple of minutes and by the time I sat up she was putting on her shoes. I asked if she was ok and she just nodded and walked out of the room.
We decide to go to a pizza place nearby for dinner and I end up sat between Mitch and Kevin and opposite Kirstie. Possibly not the best spot for me to be sat in. Mitch and Scott keep staring at me and I know that I keep staring at Kirstie. We’re all quieter than usual and Kevin picks up on the group discomfort. ‘Are you guys ok?’ We all reply too quickly, tripping over each other and he raises his eyebrows ‘You sure you want to go out?’ Kirstie breathes out ‘Um why don’t we just go to a bar instead of a club?’ ‘That’s a good idea.’ Scott agrees and they start discussing possible places we could go.
I want to go out and have fun with the others but I feel like being drunk around them isn’t necessarily the best idea. ‘You’re coming right Avi?’ Kirstie’s smiling up at me. ‘Sure, why not.’ ‘Hurry up then’ She smirks and grabs my hand to drag me towards the others. She practically bounds up to Scott and I let myself get dragged along behind her. It’s almost funny how hard I find it to argue with her. She can persuade me far too easily. Scott glances down at our linked hands and winks at me. I decide that I should probably let go before Mitch sees. I gently remove my hand from hers and I feel kind of offended when she doesn’t react at all.
