A/N: Ok here we go.
Once we've finished eating and said goodbye to Claire we go and get back into Kirstie's car. 'So where shall we go then?' 'Where shall we go?' She sighs as she starts the engine. 'I'm not really ready for this date to end, where shall we go?' Usually I'm a fairly sensible person but it's hardly news that Kirstie makes me a bit more spontaneous. 'How about we just drive?' 'Yeah, I could go for that.' She pulls out of the parking lot and starts to drive in the opposite direction from the way that we came. She turns on the radio and a Sara Bareilles song comes on. 'Remember when you sung this that time that Mitch was ill?' She nods and smiles, taking a left turn. 'Yeah that was nice. It's still basically my favourite song.' 'You were amazing as always.' She giggles 'Seriously though Kirstie, it's always nice to see you have your moment.' She takes one hand off the steering wheel and uses it to hold mine. 'I'm glad you were the one I had that moment with.'
We drive for about ten more minutes in silence and it's nice just sitting beside her, heading nowhere in particular. 'It's getting kind of late. We can head back or.' She pauses. 'Or?' 'Or we could keep driving. There's somewhere near here where we could park and then just sleep in the car. I don't know, that might be weird.' She looks almost embarassed. 'No that sounds fun. Where are you thinking of going?' 'There's this park nearby. Scott told me that Alex took him there and that the parking lot is super small and there's no gate so we can just go in whenever we want.' 'Cool.' She grins and points to her bag which is next to my feet. 'Could you grab my phone and text Scott to ask him where to turn-off?' I reach down and pull it out, looking to her to ask for the passcode. 'My birthday.' I nod and type it in. I write the shortest text possible to Scott, not wanting to get into explaining things.
Obviously though he notices it's not her straight away. I reply quickly that yes it is Avi and that Kirstie is fine and that of course I'll behave myself. 'It's the next left I think.' She's focused on finding the right way and then on parking so we don't speak until we stop moving. 'Here we are then.' We get out of the car and she walks round to my side, holding out her hand. I take it without hesitating. 'This way.' We start walking away from the car and towards a hill. While we walk we talk about the new arrangement and Scott and Alex's relationship. 'They're so crazy about each other, it's adorable.' 'Yeah they're sweet.' It's hard to know what to think. Is that what she wants for us? Does she see us as the couple that everyone loves to be around because they're just so happy and secure with each other?
She leads me up the hill and I remove my hand from hers to wrap my arm around her waist. She leans her head against me and I smile to myself because this feels so right. When we reach the top of the hill we sit down. 'It's so beautiful here.' Her voice is soft as if she doesn't want to ruin the peacefulness of the place. 'It is.' She stands up and I start to do the same but she places a hand on my chest and then sits back down, this time curled up on my lap. 'Is this ok?' 'Perfect.' I wrap both of my arms around her and we just sit there. She sighs. 'You ok?' 'I can feel your voice through your chest and it's.' She trails off and I laugh quietly. of course girls have talked about my voice before but this is Kirstie. So everything affects me a thousand times more. 'Good?' She nods and her hair brushes my mouth. 'Good.'
For a while it's fine. I'm certain that we can do this. Can move away from all of the desperation and secrecy. We don't need everything to lead to sex anymore. I'm convinced until she shifts her body and turns around to kiss me. It's gentle and sweet but combined with her position in my lap it takes my thoughts to places that I didn't want them to go. What is it about her that makes her so irresistible to me? I pull away from the kiss and she frowns. 'What's wrong?' She's sat facing me with her legs either side of my waist. 'There's nothing wrong it's just.' I wonder how best to put it but when she adjusts her position slightly and unintentionally rubs herself against my crotch, that becomes unnecessary. 'Oh' she looks amused rather than annoyed so that's a good sign. 'You know you are allowed to get turned on when I kiss you right? I know I do, even if it isn't quite as obvious.'
'I know, I just wanted this to be romantic.' 'It is, it's totally romantic. That doesn't mean it can't also be really hot. We've spent too long keeping everything separate and I don't think attraction is really something that you can compartmentalise. I want to hold your hand and go on dates with you and I also want to hear you moaning my name. Ok?' 'Now?' she smirks and kisses me again, this time pushing me onto my back and running her tongue over my lips. I grip her hips tightly and she gasps against my mouth and it's so convenient that I already know a hundred different ways to make her fall apart. I roll us over and she laughs. 'What?' 'You always get so impatient when I'm on top.' My laugh mingles with her moan as I press her body into the grass with my own. 'If I remember correctly Kirst, you're the impatient one.' She tugs at my hair in response and I attach my lips to her neck in the exact spot that I semi-accidentally gave her that hickey.
I wake up early the next morning. Usually I'd be annoyed but the possibility of being found like this makes me willing to get up. Also the reality of last night adds some urgency to the situation. 'Kirstie, you need to wake up.' She groans loudly. 'Ew. I really need a shower.' She suddenly sits bolt upright, clutching her head when she gets dizzy. 'We had sex.' I nod, feeling guilty and nervous 'we didn't use protection did we?' I shake my head and she groans again. 'What the hell is wrong with us?' We had unprotected sex in a park and then fell asleep partially naked in the same park. I know she makes me a bit more reckless than usual but this is insane. 'Kirstie, I'm sorry.' She cuts me off. 'We were both being idiots now we need to sort it.' She stands up, pulling on her shoes and starts walking to her car.
'Ok so we need a morning after pill. we can get one at the convenience store near mine, I'd rather be home when I take it.' She sounds almost professional but there's an edge to her voice. 'Kirstie.' She stops and turns around 'what?' I walk towards her and place my hands on her shoulders. 'It's ok to be scared or mad. I'm here.' she looks into my eyes and her bottom lip starts to wobble. 'That was so stupid Avi. Why did we do that?' I pull her into a hug, wrapping my arms around her waist and feeling her head fall against my chest. 'We got carried away. We were caught up in the moment and we forgot how to be rational.' She nods as she moves away and unlocks the car. 'We seem to have that effect on each other.' It's not the best way to end a date. Annoyed at ourselves and on the way to buy something that I always thought I was way too sensible to need but here we are.
