the train | changbin [under construction]

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eunsan;

i asked myself at least three times that day why i was alive and what my purpose was. i'd never felt so lost, so alone, in the seventeen years of my life. my best friend had just betrayed me, stabbed me in my back and left me to rot. i still don't know what i did wrong but i guess she just wanted attention.

it was 7:43 pm and no one was home except for hei, my bombay kitten. i adopted him from a shelter when he was two months old. he doesn't ask for much, just love and some food.

my mother wasn't home. she usually works late hours since she's an only parent and my brother, kino, has been doing military service for a year. he should come back in a few months if everything turns out right. i have a bad feeling about him though..

i paced around the small apartment i called home and thought about things to do. study? no, don't feel like it. tv? probably not. it costs too much. friends? the only friend i had betrayed me. go outside? hmm, sure. it doesn't hurt with a little bit of fresh air and some stares from the old women.