Trouble in Paradise

Graduation

So it's currently thirty minutes later and honestly I'm dumbfounded. 

I'm flabbergasted...

I'm shocked...

I can't believe the girl I'm looking at in the mirror is the same girl that looked like her makeup was put on with a paintball gun. 

Char has really outdone herself this time... 

I look soo good...

I mean that in the most modest way possible...but really I look good (picture above) 

This is all so real, I'm graduating today in less than 30 minutes and I'm gonna have to leave my best friend. My sister from another mister....

The yin to my yang...

The cheese to my macaroni 

The marshmallow to my hot chocolate

The sauce to my spaghetti. 

If you hadn't noticed already, I cook and I'm really good at it. I think. 

"Hey, don't cry Haze, we can't afford to ruin my master piece." Char says pointing to my face. 

"But that wouldn't be a problem if you managed to actually buy waterproof mascara" Char said, noticing my change in mood. 

I gave her sad smile looking at myself in the mirror,  "That won't be a problem...I don't cry...it's for weaklings" I say to her and smile... it's true..I don't cry..it really doesn't change or help anything...

It's time....

"I love you Char, you're my sister" I said to her out of the blue. I don't know why but I felt the need to tell her that. I need her to know we're more than just best friends, she's the sibling I never had.

"Omg, Haze. Now I'm gonna cry...I love you too..soooo much!!" She says while hugging me so tightly. I sigh into her shoulder and shut my eyes tight. Usually I would make a snarky comment but right now this hug is all I need from her. 

Char and I are currently sitting in my mom's car on the way to school. We're all dolled up, Char looks beautiful as usual and so do I, for the first time in forever. 

I'm currently re-reading my speech nervously. This isn't me. This speech doesn't portray what I really want to say. But I have to, just suck it up and stick to the script. They don't need to know what you want to say. It's just a three minute speech, just read the words off the paper and I'll be fine.. Just rea-

"Hey"

"Haze"

"HAZEL!!!" 

I snapped my head to my right in shock to see a concerned Char looking at me. "Yeah, what's up?" I say, trying to cover up my nervousness. I don't even know why I try because the girl knows me too much but Char also worries too much, especially for me, and I can't let her worry today, I want her to be happy and think about herself and graduation...not me and my stupid nerves. 

"What's up?" Char replies sarcastically mimicking my question. 

"Just be yourself, you're gonna be fine. It's just a speech, in a couple of hours, you won't even see these people anymore" Char said reassuringly squeezing my hand. 

I wonder how she knows that was what's bothering me. I swear she's like psychic or something.

"Char's right honey. You'll do great. You always do." 

And somehow their words actually help me.... I smile at the two of them and wonder how I'm gonna survive college with neither of them to reassure me. I may act strong on the outside but I might be the weakest person I know on the inside.