"𝙸 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸'𝚖 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚊𝚜 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝'𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚊 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎."
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Through all these lessons, I've learned that if you are going to get through them, you have to have faith. Have faith that getting heartbroken won't keep you down, that someone will like you just the way you are, and that you will have friends that accept and defend you against everything. But most importantly, have faith that are loved. I don't just mean the love you feel in a relationship. I'm talking about your love for your family, friends, and even your pet. Pets love unconditionally, after all.
I still believe I'm meant to find love, but it might not be as fast as others, and that's okay. Maybe before I can find the love I want, I need to love myself a little more still. I still need to overcome my insecurity and doubts about myself and other people because that is holding me back.
Sometimes you need to be realistic and other times when you need to believe against all odds. It just depends on what it is. There will be people who will put you down for being yourself or for wanting things that seem impossible to get, but you can't listen to them because then you're limiting yourself from greatness. Greatness is just the best person you can be. You are not perfect or flawless, but you deserve the world anyway.
No one can predict the future, so you have to take everything thrown at you in stride and one step at a time. I don't know if people will learn being gay isn't a sin or it finally not being viewed as such a crime. All I can say is changing the world doesn't happen overnight, so all we can do is carry on despite all those who are against us.
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Diary of a Homosexual
Truyện NgắnA diary of sorts written by my younger self to reflect on the events and emotions that have defined the ups and downs of being gay and falling in love.
