Diary, Diary// f.w.

Seaside Tears

"You excited for the beach?" Jack wiggled his eyebrows, a toothy grin plastered across his face. I nod my head, "Quit being a tease." I love the beach. I love to build sand castles, and walk on the pier. But I can't swim, so I stay where I'm most safe. And because it's overcast, not everyone is going swimming. It's supposed to rain. I plan to walk along the beach and climb the rocks to see if there are any sea life that I can get pictures of. Like seals. God I love seals.

"I hear the waves are supposed to be huge today!" Rowan sits down next to Jack and I. I have the window seat on the bus, it's my favorite spot. Jack is in the middle, and Ro is on the end. "Hey!" I reach over Jack to hug my friend. "Who are you?" Jack winks and I shove him playfully. "Rowan..." She giggles. "Does your last name happen to be Blanchard?" Sophia squeezes into our row and sits on my lap, to which I allow her to take my window seat spot, because she was heavy. 

"Yes, actually."

"Wait! So then you're that girl who got a week of detention for hot gluing Mrs. Franz's classroom door shut on April Fools?!"

"That would be me." Jack fanboys over Rowan and rambles about how much of a genius she is and that she should marry him. I begin to look around the bus to see where Finn was. He has Kadmiri for French 2 as well, but not in my period.

 I saw him sitting at the way back at a window seat. He kept to himself, and his earphones were plugged in. He was visibly uncomfortable, probably because there was two other people sitting very close to him. Our eyes meet, and he glares at me. What the fuck? I try smiling and waving to him but he looks at me with absolute disgust and sarcastically waves back to me.

I turn back and sit in my seat properly. Aren't we friends? We stayed up all night together playing video games. What's his problem? Did I do something? I guess we're back to one sided conversations again. My heart sank, I feel confused. 

Sophia nudges me, snapping me out of my thoughts. 

"You okay? What's the matter?" Her light colored eyes stared into my boring ones. It was like she was looking into my soul. "Nothing. I'm fine." 

She turns around in her seat to find whatever had caught my attention. It seems she realized who I was looking at, and she sighs as she sit's back down in her seat.

"I hate Finn Wolfhard. He's such a fuckboy. You'll get over him, I promise." She wraps her arm around my shoulder and I lean into her slightly confused by her words.

"What do you mean?" I get back up to see what she was talking about. Finn had his arm around  Kiaara Morris, the only cheerleader in French 2. They looked to be getting cozy, engaging in a conversation when he laughed. And then I froze. His lips crashed against hers, and they sucked each other's faces intensely. I immediately regret turning around. My throat becomes tight, and my stomach starts to hurt. My heart started racing and I can feel the blood rushing to my neck and cheeks. 

Why am I reacting this way?

I can feel a sharp stinging in my eyes, and I try my best not to let my tears out. I bite my lip and lean into Sophia once again.

Jack and Rowan were to busy caught up in talking about pranks to notice what was going on. 

.....

The entire bus ride consisted of my mind swirling with thoughts of Finn and Kiiara, and what would happen as soon as we got off the bus. Should I ignore him for the rest of the day? The bus came to a sudden hault, and I look out the window to see that we're at the beach. Because it's eight thirty in the morning, the beach is almost empty. 

Eventually everybody piles out of the bus, and I lock arms with Sophia. I can hear Finn laughing with Kiiara from directly behind me, as Mr. Kadmiri and Mrs. Marie explain today's schedule. We'd first go to the restaurant, then we'd walk along the pier. After that, we were free to roam around the beach. We're supposed to meet up with the instructors at two in the afternoon.