The Tragic Ending of Us

10-12-17

I used to write you every day. No. Let me rephrase. I wrote to the metaphysical you. The you that would've actually read these things. I wrote my ever-beating heart out. I sat for hours, like now.

Just writing until my hands cramped up and my legs fell asleep.

Writing until my stomach was grumbling from being dehydrated and starved.

Writing until my vision was blurred and my mind was hazed.

Writing until my version of us continued writing itself.

Writing until we stayed alive.

Because that's what I did. I wrote to keep us alive. I didn't write for you. No. I would never waste my breath or my words on you. It was never for you. It was for me. It still is for me. It helps me move on. It keeps me from going back to you. It helps me stay alive.

I wrote so we weren't forgotten.

Because believe it or not...

I didn't want to forget us.

Because believe it or not...

I didn't want to forget you.

And by writing...I can change how things went.

By writing...I can actually fight.

Fight for this. For us. For you.

Because maybe you wanted me to fight.

But I hated confrontations, you knew that.

You knew I was gonna let you go.

You knew I'd put your happiness before mine.

If leaving was what made you happy...

Then I sure as well wasn't gonna stop you.

And maybe that was my mistake...

But mistakes are only things that fail.

So if someone ever asks if we were a mistake,

Please don't be surprised when I say that...

Yes...We were...

10 December 2017

//songs listened to writing this chapter//

songs by WILD (look them up...they're amazing)

//12th chapter- December 10 2017//

This upload was late because I've been sick for the past week and I've missed a ton of school work!! And speaking of school...I've got two dress rehearsals on Monday&Tuesday... A concert with my best friend on Wednesday...And I'm apart of the school play being shone on Friday night. So update might be on Thursday if possible. :)