The day I met you

14. Phil's big secret

~~Phil's POV~~

so let me get this straight.

Dan spent the night at my house. A whole lot of shit came up for him. I tried to comfort him. He almost kissed me. Then, he just ran out?

That's all that happened, right? I didn't do anything wrong, right? And I should go after him, right?

I quickly got on a hoodie and jeans and went out my front door. I have no idea where dan could have gone. I guess I could try and text him.

PHIL: Hey are you okay?

I wait about 10 minutes for a responce as I walk into town.

Nothing.

Well, shit.

The only thing I can think of is the park. I could head there.

I walk there and I'm not surprised to see him sitting there. I have a feeling this will be a special spot for us.

"Hey," I say softly walking up behind Dan who was leaning up against the tree.

He turned his head away from me. I sat next to him. "How ya feelin?"

He was still quiet.

I feel bad that I don't know how to help. I mean, I really want to. I just don't know what he wants me to do becuase he won't talk to me. And I don't want to do something and it makes it worse.

But I will do this.

I lay my head on his shoulder. "I don't know how it feels to go through what youve gone through, but I know what it feels to feel like everything sucks." I feel him move his head slightly. "Last year..." I trail off. I don't want to finish, but I have already started. "Last year, I.. uh.. I lost my sister. She got really sick.. she passed away right before Christmas. It kinda sucks that it had to be Christmas time." I fake laughed through my tears I could feel coming.

I just sit in silence for a moment thinking about her.

"It's why I am who I am. And I know Chastity would kill me. She hated mean people, but when I shut myself away from the world, when no one understands, and they mess with me, of course I'm going to retaliate. I started wearing darker clothes, becuase what's the point..." I forgot where I was going with all of this.

"What was the point of me telling you all this?" I ask if Dan remembers.

"You know how it feels for life to suck?" Dan says softly but coarse, you can hear that he has been crying.

"Oh yes right, well, I know how it feels. You Don't have to run off on me. You can talk to me."

I feel dan move slightly, so I lift my head. I turn to see that he's looking back at me. "Dan," I take his hand, "you can trust me."

As if it was a cue, Dan starts to tear up. He quickly lays his face into my cheast. I hug him tightly.

".. Thank... you.." he says through the sobs.

I really hate to talk about my sister. She was the one consistent thing in my life. I go back and forth between my mom and dad, but Chastity, she has always been with me. She was 2 years younger, so we were more similar than diffrent. She always told me how to dress to not look like a loser, I protected her from the bullies. We were there for each other, she made my world in color, I made her's safe.

But after she left me, my world went back grey. There was no point in having color if I didn't have my source of happiness.

"And this is why I'm glad I met you Dan. My sister, she made me a good person, she made me happy, she made me who I am. And with out her, I fell apart. I was aweful to you becuase you reminded me of her and no one could be like her. But i realised you were a similar confort that I needed, and I got mad and pushed you away when memories of her came back. You are good for me Dan, I have no idea if I'm good for you, but I know that I need you, I'm sorry."

Man, isn't this just a time for tears and comfort. It was good though, it was making Dan and I get more used to each other. I feel like I'm seriously, honestly, maybe falling for him...

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~~Dan's POV~~

I'm not sure how to comprehend everything that has happened in the last hour, but it's good. Phil has opened up to me and has given me the answers that I have have been looking for, for the longest time.

"Thank you, again. This was good." Here we are, Phil and I holding each other under a tree at 930 in the morning. Strange thing to think about, but I don't care how it looks or sounds, it's lovely.

I really needed this, it has really made mw forget all of this morning. "Let's just stay here a while."

"I'd love that."

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Uh.... sorry for the looooong wait. I am SOOO busy.

And 9.6K READS??

BUT heres this and I really hope it clears up some questions. (I have been planing this, some of yous have been saying idk what im doing) plz just love the story. ;-; no hate.

Xoxo,

Anne