The Way Idols Break Up [ON-GOING]

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER EIGHT

Hindi ako makatulog buong gabi. Iniisip ko kung ano nga bang nararamdaman ko. Pero kahit pilit kong paniwalain ang sarili kong may gusto ako kay Se Hun para lang magkaroon na ako ng dahilan sa pagseselos, hindi talaga ma-take ng isip ko. Wala naman talaga kasi akong attractment na nararamdaman sa kanya.

Bangag akong pumasok sa school. Tinatanong sa akin ni Ysabel kung na-sort out ko na ba yung feelings ko pero kahit ako, hindi rin siya masagot.

Buti na lang at hindi ko nakita si Sehun ngayong umaga, kundi ewan. Magiging awkward ako sa kanya.

Lunchbreak ngayon. Kumakain kami ni Ysabel sa canteen ng magulat kami dahil nakiupo sa amin si Subin.

"Can I?" Turo ni Subin sa empty seat. Ysabel and I nodded. "Se Hun was asking why you suddenly ran yesterday." Sabi niya habang inaayos yung lunch niya.

"I said I'm going to do my assignments." Hindi ko ipinapahalatang affected ako.

"Ah. I see. So he didn't tell you before that he was a trainee huh? Oppa is really naughty."

ANO? NAUGHTY? WRONG CHOICE OF WORD BA YAN SUBIN? IBA KASI ANG NAIISIP KO SA NAUGHTY NA YAN! @@

"Subin-ah, are you and Se Hun… you know? Are you guys…?" Tanong ni Ysabel.

"In a relationship, you mean?" Natatawang sabi ni Subin. "I actually don't know. Se Hun-ie is very kind and loving. He treats me as a his best friend though he rarely talk to me in school because he wants to protect me from his sasaeng." (sasaeng – stalker fans)

"Sasaeng? Aren't you a saseng yourself?" Sarcastic na sagot ni Ysabel.

"I am not." Tumingin si Subin sa mga mata ni Ysabel.

"Then why did you bully Ela?" Nagtaas ng boses si Ysabel.

"Ysabel." Hinawakan ko siya sa baikat. Baka kung anong gawin pa nito.

"I thought she was an anti who would do something bad to Se Hun-ie. There are some anti-fans like that. They make sure they will be a trainee's close friend, and then when the trainee debuts, they will scatter all his photos and say bad things about them. I'm protecting Se Hun as well since he's protecting me. If I made a wrong impression, I'm really sorry."

Mukhang totoo naman yung sinasabi ni Subin. Pero, ganun ba talaga sila ka-close? Bakit parang kapag sinasabi ni Subin kung papaano sila ka-close ni Se Hun, hindi matanggap ng internal organs ko? @@

"You know what, Se Hun also said to Ela that he will protect him against bullies, like you." Sagot ulit ni Ysabel. Halatang tumataas ang dugo ni Ysabel.

"Ysabel, tama na."

Natawa na lang si Subin.

"That's why he talked to me and explained to me who you are. He told me that you are not harmful. Of course he wouldn't tell you who I really am since his identity as a trainee is also a secret. Let us say if he is a superhero, I am his sidekick. If a normal person knows that there is a sidekick, the superhero's identity will also be revealed. But now, I'm making friends with you since we all know what Se Hun is now. We share the same secrets, it will bond us I guess." Tumingin sa akin si Subin. "Ela-ssi, I think your friend is still angry at me for what I did, but I'm really sorry. Se Hun-ie told me that you are a nice person and you are understanding, I hope that you already forgive me. But for now, I should go. See you next time." She smiled and left our table.

"Pigilan mo ako Ela sasapakin ko yun!" Naiinis na sabi ni Ysabel. "Obvious namang nagpunta lang yun dito para ipagmayabang niyang close sila ni Se Hun eh. Akala niya siguro iniisip mong may gusto si Se Hun sa'yo."

"Ysabel, naiintindihan ko siya. At tama siya. Pinoprotektahan lang niya ang identity ni Se Hun, at pinoprotektahan naman siya ni Se Hun. Concerned lang si Subin kay Se Hun. Kung tutuuusin mo ang bait niya. Kung iisipin mo, ako talaga yung istorbo eh. Mukha namang may gusto sila sa isa't-isa."

Nalungkot ako bigla. Akala ko kasi totoo yung mga sinabi ni Se Hun dati na poprotektahan niya ako, yun pala, si Subin ang pinoprotektahan niya.

Hindi ko naman masisi si Se Hun, alam ko ang hirap ng isang trainee upang maprotektahan ang buhay nila laban sa mga sasaeng.

Bakit ba ako nag-expect?

Nagiging possessive na ata ako kahit wala namang dahilan.

Mabuti sigurong iwasan ko siya para matanggal na ang kahibangang ito.