My one and only Love

Chapter 15

Maya wasn’t the type of girl who was shy or afraid of things, especially something she was comfortable with. Because her relationship with Josh was so stable and they were doing well for the first three months, Maya didn’t have any problems with anyone – especially some stranger behind a store counter – knowing she was having sex. Her friends on the other hand, she didn’t want to tell them. She had kept that choice detail from all of them when the topic of her and Josh came up. They didn’t need to know and Maya didn’t want to hear what some of them would have to say – Riley especially. So when the time came to buy condoms, Maya didn’t always leave it to Josh, she was fine to go buy them herself.

What Maya didn’t expect was Riley seeing her go into the drug store and crossing the street to go in after her. Maya walked directly to the condom isle, skimming over them with her eyes for a second before choosing a box. As she turned on her heel to head to the counter she walked right into Riley. Maya gasped and the box fell to the floor. Both of them looked down at the box marked Trojan with wide eyes for very different reasons. “Maya!” Riley snapped at her in a loud whisper.

Maya took in a deep breath and let it out slowly. She gave a little nod for herself, standing tall. She was an amazon warrior, she wasn’t going to be scared of judgement, she wasn’t. But as she met the look in Riley’s eyes she could feel herself wavering. Maya bent to pick up the box and met her best friend’s eyes once more. “It’s not a big deal, Riley.” She said, keeping her composure as she stepped around her to head towards the register.

Riley grabbed hold of Maya’s arm and pulled her back into the isle. “It IS a big deal! Why are you buying those?!” Still a whisper, nearly frantic as she looked around, feeling like she was being watched. “Are you thinking about doing…it?”

It took everything in Maya not to laugh and pat Riley on the head, but she held her head high and took a step back from Riley. “Riles…” She swallowed hard, she hated to lie, but she couldn’t have Riley getting all wound up right here in the store. “Yes, I’m thinking about it and just want to be prepared if it ever happens, okay? It’s right to be safe just in case right?”

Riley’s brow furrowed some and she bit at her lip, trying to think of an argument against it, but if she were honest she couldn’t think of one. “Yeah, I guess.” Riley walked behind Maya the whole way, shocked at how easy it was for Maya to just come into the store and buy something like that. Maya wasn’t even blushing but Riley – who wasn’t making the purchase, was indeed. As they walked out Riley kept thinking about it, how she wouldn’t have the courage, felt weird just being in the same isle as the condoms. Sex was terrifying, she’d barely gotten past first base herself. But as she looked over to Maya while they walked she stopped. “Maya?” She called, to the blonde. Maya had only gotten two steps ahead but turned back around to her. “You already did it, didn’t you?”

Maya’s expression alone gave it away but she nodded as well. Riley blinked a few times, feeling stunned. Her best friend…and her uncle…had sex. Sex. They weren’t married, they’d only been together a few months, but they’d done it anyway. “Are you okay?” Maya asked her softly, feeling far older than Riley in that moment.

“Why’d you do it?” Riley asked softly, feeling embarrassed just talking about it.

“We love each other.” Maya told her. They moved to sit on the steps of the next building and Maya looked to her best friend with a smile.

“What…what’s it like?” Riley asked timidly and as Maya opened her mouth Riley spoke again quickly. “No wait! I don’t want to know.”

“Okay…” Maya muttered, watching Riley, sure her mind would change again.

“Well…I mean, that’s my uncle, that’s weird of me to ask, right?”

“You can ask me anything, Riles.” Maya told her softly, but Riley shook her head and stood up.

“No, no, I don’t want to know.” Riley said again and began to walk, Maya a step behind, not really believing her.

By this point the bedroom situation had been figured out so each girl had her own twin size bed, but they still pushed them next to each other so they could talk softly in the night like when they would share. They shared the desk and closet along with everything inside. It was easy for them to share, they’d always done it. Riley looked across the bed to Maya and feeling eyes on her, Maya opened hers to see her best friend staring back. “What’s it like?” Riley asked in a whisper.

“It’s nice.” Maya began softly, but Riley looked on expectantly and Maya smiled. “We didn’t just…do it, you know? There’s other stuff first, and we talked a lot, like nice things to one another, how much we love each other and how we feel and stuff. It feels weird the first time, not a bad weird, but…not like anything I’ve ever felt.” Riley listened intently, forgetting that it had happened with her uncle, forgetting everything but her best friend having taken a step into adulthood that she hadn’t even imagined yet.

“Does it hurt?” Riley asked softly and Maya could see that she was focused on that, having heard it in some teen magazine once ages ago.

“Not exactly hurt. It’s like…pressure at first, but then it feels good. Just get used to it. But I wasn’t nervous, I think if you’re scared of it then it might hurt, but…I wasn’t scared, I knew he wouldn’t hurt me.” Maya continued. “It’s kind of messy, and you bleed the first time, but…it wasn’t gross or weird.” She added on quickly in response to the scrunched face Riley made.

“What…other stuff?” Riley asked timidly. Maya’s brow rose. “You said you did other stuff too…what other stuff?”

“Oh, like…fooling around, you know touching and stuff.” She replied, not really thinking about Riley not doing that yet.

“I’ve never…” Riley began. “I mean I know when he gets all hard in his pants, but I’ve never you know…touched it.” Riley admitted, her face red in the darkness. “I’ve never even seen one.”

“Really? Haven’t you ever just been curious?” Maya asked, sitting up a little. Riley just shrugged. “You could Google it you know. It’s not like you have to go to some filthy website. Just Google image search the word penis.” Maya told her, holding out her own phone with a hint of a snicker.

“No!” Riley gasped out. “Don’t do that, someone will see it!”

“Who is going to see it? You think the phone bill lists everything you google? I assure you it doesn’t.”

“How do you know?”

“Because if it did your parents would have set me down for a long talk a long time ago.” Maya replied with a smirk.

“What do you Google?” Riley asked, shocked.

“Everything.” Maya chuckled softly, laying back down. “Really though, I’ve googled birth control and sex stuff, I’ve googled about what boys like and stuff like that. I mean it’s not that big of a deal, it’s just information you know?”

“So…have you done…everything?” Riley asked softly.

“What’s everything?”

“Like…touched it?”

“Yes, I’ve touched it.”

“Have you ever…you know…in your mouth?” Riley found it hard to even say blow job and Maya couldn’t hold back her amusement.

“I’m sorry.” She whispered at Riley’s glare. “Yes, I’ve given head.”

“Is it gross?”

Maya shook her head. “No, not really. I mean it doesn’t taste great or anything, but it’s not disgusting. Guys like it, a lot. But it’s not something I do all the time or anything, we use our hands more often.” Maya looked to her curious best friend and was honest to a fault and with a shrug she continued. “Truthfully, I don’t think I’m very good at it anyway. I don’t really feel like I know what I’m doing.”

Knowing that even though she was now a lot more experienced, Maya didn’t seem to always know what she was doing made Riley feel a little better about not knowing what she was doing at all. The only problem would be that Riley wouldn’t be able to stop thinking about it in comparison to her own relationship. She’d always done everything with Maya, they’d taken all the same steps together, even had a joint first date but knowing there were some things that weren’t going to happen with the safety of her best friend felt lonely in a way. She was on her own with this one.