“Ang laki ng diamond ng singsing ko.”
Natawa si Judas sa sinabi ko. Kauuwi lang namin galing sa party ni Bernice. Everyone was wasted, including Leira and Azul, sa kanilang lima, si Judas lang ang hindi uminom. Dinadaan niya lang kami sa kwento. Hindi rin naman ako umiinom gaano, okay na ako sa wine na na-serve kanina sa party. I was just shaking my head.
“Anong pumasok sa isipan mo? Do you really wanna marry me?”
“Yes, Arielle.” Sabi niya habang paakyat kami sa hagdanan. “I can’t see myself without you anymore. Pinag-aralan ko naman ang nararamdaman ko. I asked myself a million times why I am doing this, is thi because I wanted to settledown and I have you now, or is it because I have you now that’s why I want to settle down.” Natawa ako. Parang magkapareho lang naman ang sinabi niya.
“Pero hindi. I have you, you’re my home and now that I am home, I want to settle down, I want you. Ready na ako. I am yours, my heart belongs to you. It’s not here anymore.” Itinuro niya iyong dibdib niya. “It’s with you.” Kinindatan niya pa ako. I sighed.
“I love you, Arielle. Iyon ang mga salitang dapat sana ay sinabi ko kanina but I got too caught up in your eyes and in the moment that I lost it. The words, aren’t enough to express my feelings. I love you so much. You revive me. Because of you, I was able to live again.” Sabi niyang muli. I couldn’t say anything. Naiyak na naman ako and Judas, kissed away my tears. I hugged him tightly. He kissed me and I kissed him back.
Alam ko, sa oras na ito, ibibigay ko kay Jude ang nararapat na para sa kanya – na sa tagal kong iningatan ang sarili ko, siya lang pala iyong hinihintay ko. Wala akong nararamdamang pag-aalinlangan, alam kong kaya kong ibigay sa kanya ang aking sarili.
That’s why when he carried me in his arms while still kissing me, I hugged him back at ipinaubaya ko na ang lahat sa kanya. The moment my back reached the bed, I knew – I already knew that he’s going to conquer, not just my heart but my whole being.
He slowly undressed me, I gave him back everything that he gave me. I answered his touched with reluctance and adoration. He paid homage to every ince of my skin and every contour of my body. He pleasured my being, he gave me what I am asking for, and taught me how to return the pleasure he was giving me.
It took me some moments to finally realized what was happening to my body, why I am shivering with so much joy. My eyes were wide and closed and dreamy during the act, my tears fell, when I felt his lips in my core.
Sinamba ako ni Judas nang gabing iyon at hinding-hindi ako magsisisi sa ginawa kong ito because I know that he’s my first and he is going to be my last.
A few moments later, our bodies joined and we became one. The universe conspired to bring us to this moment – I can feel every inch of him inside of me, stretching me, and filling me up. The pain embraced my whiole being but he made sure that it will be bearable.
Waves of pleasure and electricity came after a few minutes. I am now one with him in rythym and in act. It was a lovely dance and I couldn’t wait until I reach what I have to reach. And when I did. It was almost unbelievable…
“I love you so much, Arielle Jasmin Cruise… soon to be Mrs. Escalona.” Nakangiting wika ni Judas sa akin. He kissed my forehead and let me sleep on his chest.
Judas, changed the course of my destiny.
The next morning, Jude made love to me again. Yes, it’s called making love because our relationship is deeper than anything that I know. Iba ang way ni Jude ngayon, he’s a bit rougher now but I like it. Pagkatapos naman ay very attentive siya. Tinulungan pa nga niya akong maligo. He even dressed me. Hiyang-hiya naman ako.
