Heartbreak | Fack

Chapter 2

Jack's POV

It's been one month.  One month since I had to leave Finn Wolfhard, the absolute love of my life.  I mean we talk to each other every single day but it's just not the same as being with him every single day.  We lived with each other for two years and then all of a sudden we both had to fly across the country and actually start college.  I know that we are only like one hundred miles apart but it feels like a whole world away.  I just miss him.  I miss his curly hair, his cute freckles, his to-die-for cheekbones, his hugs, his kisses, his cuddles, and everything else.  I miss him.  He completes me, he makes everything worth it.

College at Dartmouth has been okay so far, I guess.  It's just that everyone is so damn smart and it makes me feel like I'm not good enough or smart enough.  And everyone is so stuck up.  I guess that's what I get for going here.  It's like everyone that goes here knows how smart they are.  They all think they are fucking better than everyone else.  Like, fuck off, you're not special.

"Hey, Jack."  I was kind of in a trance but I heard this voice coming from the doorway.  I looked up and it was my roommate.  Of course it was.  His name's Darryl and he is always smiling.  He's one of the nicest people I have met here.  He actually makes my life here more tolerable, I mean when he's not super annoying.

"Hey Darryl," I said knocking myself out of my thoughts, "what's up?"

"Oh, nothing, just got back from class.  Want to hang out with me, Chris, and Reylynn.  We were gonna go see a movie."  I unintentionally groaned before covering my mouth in embarrassment making it seemed like I yawned.

"You don't have to go if you don't want Jack."  Darryl sounded slightly disappointed and I felt bad.

"No, it's fine.  I'll go.  I need to get my mind off of things anyway."  I really didn't want to go but I needed to stop thinking about Finn for a little bit.  I missed him but it was making me depressed.  Plus, I was a little hesitant to go with Chris.  After he kissed me all those years ago, I thought I would never forgive him for getting in the way of my relationship with Finn.  He's sworn that he's over me but I'm having trouble forgiving him.  I'm trying though, I really am.

I found out that Chris was going to this school a couple days after I got here.  I tried my best to avoid him but he kept trying to talk to me.  I finally had no choice but to talk to him because I knew that he wouldn't leave me alone until I did.

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"What Chris?" I asked clearly annoyed.

"I just wanted to say hi and apologize again for what happened."  I just rolled my eyes and turned back around before starting to walk away.

"It was three years ago Jack.  You can't be mad at me forever."  I felt a tug on my shoulder so I stopped and turned staring him dead in the eyes.

"Chris, you almost broke Finn and I up and I just don't know if I can just forgive you."

"I know and I'm sorry.  I never would have kissed you if I had known you had a boyfriend.  I just want to go back to being friends.  Please, Jack?"  He was pleading now and I just smirked.  I knew that I should be over it.  It happened so long ago and it didn't break Finn and I up but it's just hard.  And what would Finn think?

"Fine," I said, "but only because Finn and I are still together and I miss our friendship."

"Yay!  Thanks Jackie!" he squealed like a little kid on Christmas morning.

"Don't call me that!" I said sternly, perhaps more so than I intended to.  I felt bad but only Finn can call me that!

"Sorry..." he said quietly clearly upset.  He looked down before giving me a small hug and walking away.  I rolled my eyes and kept walking to class.

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"Jack?"  Darryl once again had to bring me back to reality.

"Yeah, sorry, let's go."  I got up, grabbed my jacket, and we walked out the door.

As we started walking, I kept thinking about Chris and Reylynn.  I haven't talked to Chris much since he asked to be friends again.  I try my best to ignore him but he still tries to talk to him.  And now I have to converse with him because he became friends with Darryl and Reylynn, whom I met in one of my classes.  She was nice.  She has long blonde hair and is about my height.  She's gorgeous and I would totally go out with her if I wasn't the gayest person ever.  I enjoy talking to her and Darryl for the most part.

All of a sudden, my mind went back to Finn.  I hope he's having fun at school.  I mean I should know but we usually just talk about random stuff and call each other cute names when we talk or FaceTime.  I can't wait to call him later.  I hope he still loves me as much as I love him.  I'm trying to stay optimistic but sometimes I wonder if maybe the distance is too much for him to handle.  I just find it hard to believe that someone could actually love me after all I have gone through.  Well, hopefully this movie helps me get my mind off of Finn.  Hopefully.

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A/N - Hey guys!  I hope you enjoyed this chapter.  It was a lot of fun to write.  I have some good ideas for the upcoming chapters!  Love you all!

~Clayton