Heartbreak | Fack

Chapter 1

Finn's POV

It has been one month. One month since I had to leave the love of my life. One month since we went our separate ways. One month since we each started college. Him at Dartmouth College and me at the University of New Hampshire. I mean, we still talk every single day and we are only one hundred miles apart but I just wish that I could see him again. I haven't seen him in person in one month. I didn't realize how hard it was going to be until I woke up without him in my arms. I didn't feel his warmth against my body. I didn't get to admire his beautiful face, his cute freckles, his perfect smile, his chubby belly that I adored so much. I loved him and he will always and forever be the one and only person for me.

I couldn't imagine what my life would be like today if I had never moved to Los Angeles three years ago. I never would have met Jack. I would be empty. From the moment I first saw him standing in my living room waiting to greet the "new neighbor," I instantly fell in love. And to think that his mother made him visit us makes me laugh to this day. I guess I can thank her for us meeting and falling in love.

I mean, of course we have been through a fucking lot over the past few years. From that car accident on Halloween night to that fateful trip to Boston to discovering his mother's lifeless body in a pool of blood. We have been through a lot. But despite it all, we were always there for each other and that is what makes our relationship so special. I was there for him in the rough times and the good times and he was there for me just as much. Throughout all the laughs, cuddles, kisses, and even tears we were always together and that made us invincible. No one could hurt us as long as we had each other. No one could ever hurt us because what didn't kill us made us a hell of a lot stronger.

"Finn...Finn!...Finn!!" It was my roommate Josh. I was so deep into my thoughts that I didn't even hear him call out my name. I was just staring out into the distance, empty, so empty.

"Wh..What?" I asked finally hearing Josh's voice ring through my ears. I sounded slightly annoyed, well, because I was, but I don't think he noticed.

"Uh, we're all going to go get something to eat if you want to come." He was referring to our friend group. There was Vanessa, Henry, Conner, and Millie. Yes, Millie Bobby Brown also went to UNH which I didn't find out about until a week into the semester when I ran into her on campus. I was so happy to have a friend that I knew I could count on. Shortly after I ran into Millie, I introduced her to Josh and then we met Vanessa, Henry, and Conner and the six of us kind of just clicked. We do pretty much everything together now which I guess is good because it gets my mind off of Jack for a little while.

Vanessa is a little older than the rest of us but she is really cool and has long brown hair, brown eyes, and is always showing a genuine smile on her face. She is always so god damn happy, it sort of gets annoying. She was nice though, a little stuck up, but pretty nice and I'm pretty sure Josh has a crush on her, so there's that.. Henry is pretty chill too. He always has his hair slicked back and always wears the same Northface jacket wherever he goes. No matter what. He was a nice guy though. I got along with Conner the best out of everyone because we were definitely the most similar. He was a little shy but really outgoing after you get to know him. He had cute glasses that always seemed to start to slide off of his face causing him to have to slide them back into place like Steve Urkel. He was pretty cute, but not nearly as cute as my Jack.

I told everyone about Jack and I and about how I'm gay because I didn't want to keep it a secret and I wanted to make sure that I had friends who accepted me for who I am. Luckily, all of them were super supportive and happy that I trusted them enough to tell them about the love of my life. Right after I told them, Conner came up to me and whispered in my ear that he was gay as well. I'm pretty sure no one else knows and it was never brought up again but I was happy that he felt like he could trust me.

Right now, I was really not feeling like going out today but I knew that it would take my mind off of things so I put on a fake smile and agreed. I don't think Josh noticed that anything was up because he can be so oblivious sometimes.

"Okay, well, come on, I told them we would meet them at Wendy's at 2:00." I simply nodded and stood up. It was 1:55. I grabbed a jacket, slipped on my shoes, and ran outside with Josh trying to stay close behind him. The entire walk there, which was only a couple of minutes, I couldn't stop thinking about Jack. I loved him so much and I just really hope that he still loves me.

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A/N ~ Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of this book. I'm really excited for this one. Please vote and comment what you think! Thank you! I love all of you!

~Clayton