Trigger Warning - Self Harm, Despression
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Jack's POV
As soon as I got to my dorm I ran to my room and slammed the door shut before jumping on my bed and burying my head into my pillow. I heard my phone start ringing and knew that it was probably Finn but I really didn't want to talk right now so I ignored the call. A few minutes later, I heard a ding come from my phone and reluctantly looked and saw that I got a message from Finn. I opened it and tried to stop the tears threatening to roll down my cheeks.
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You got a message from Finnie
Finnie: Hey baby. Call me when you get a chance. I miss you and can't wait to hear your voice. I love you so much!
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I sighed knowing that it was no use trying to stop the tears. I mean, how could Finn just pretend like nothing happened when he knows that something did happen. I sat back down on my bed and tried to collect myself. After a minute, the door to my room opened and I noticed that it was Darryl. He noticed my tear-stained cheeks and immediately started freaking out.
"Jack! What's wrong?"
"F-Finn cheated on me," I blurted out burying my face into his shoulder as he engulfed me in a hug.
"Are you sure Jack?"
"Y-yeah, I think," I said before showing him the picture that Noah had sent me.
"That sucks. I know how much you love him," he told me as we just sat there in silence. After another ten minutes or so, Darryl got a text and just looked at me with a sad expression on his face.
"What's wrong," I asked him quietly.
"Nothing, it's just that that was Lilia. She wants to hang out with me."
"So, what's the problem?"
"She wants to hang out now and I don't want to leave you alone if you are hurting."
"I'll be okay, Darryl. You should go, I know you like her," I replied trying to remain calm.
"Are you sure Jack?" he asked me and I nodded trying my best to fake a smile.
"Okay, thanks," he said giving me a sympathetic hug before getting up to leave.
Once he walked out the door, I sighed and lied my head down on my pillow before hearing my phone ding again. Of course, it was Finn. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help myself so I opened the message.
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You got a message from Finnie
Finnie: Jackie?
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I ignored him again because I had no idea what I was going to say. I just stared at the message for the longest time and saw the three dots pop up signaling that Finn was typing again.
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Finnie: Jack? Are you okay?
Finnie: I need to talk to you.
Finnie: Please
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I finally built up enough courage to reply so I started typing with tears once again building up.
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Me: Just leave me alone Finn
Finnie: Jackie, what's wrong?
Me: Why don't you go talk to your boyfriend
Finnie: What are you talking about Jackie? You are my boyfriend.
Me: *One Attachment*
Finnie: Jackie, I swear it's not what it looks like. He kissed me. I love you and only you baby.
Finnie: How did you get that pic anyway?
Me: First off, it looks like you are making out with another guy.. And second, Noah sent me the pic.
Finnie: Fuck him. I swear baby I love you. I told him off after. I love you Jackie!!
Me: Just fucking leave me alone Finn.
Finnie: Okay, just know that I love you.
You blocked Finnie
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After I blocked Finn, I really broke down. Deep down I know that I'm probably overreacting and that I should believe that it wasn't his fault but it is just so damn hard for me. I just have a hard time believing that anyone would actually love me. I mean, look at me. There is nothing special about me at all. I should have known that my relationship was too good to be true. I got up, shaking myself from my thoughts, and ran to the bathroom before closing the door behind me and locking the door.
I looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't help but think that I was worthless. Finn was the last person who I thought loved me and now that he doesn't, I have no reason to live anymore. Fuck it, I thought before picking up a razor blade that I had lying on the counter next to the sink. I haven't done this in years but I needed the pain to go away.
Quickly, before I could change my mind, I placed the razor blade on my skin and carefully pushed down until I broke through the skin and drew blood. It hurt like hell but I probably deserved it. I sliced across my wrist and winced as I saw the blood pouring out of the wound. It was a lot of blood, but it wasn't enough so I lifted the blade up with trembling fingers and sliced my wrist again before crying out in pain.
The blood started to pool on the bathroom floor quickly. I started to seriously tremble but I decided to take the blade into my other hand and slice my other wrist just once which caused me to yelp in a vary high pitched voice. I knew that I was as good as dead but I just needed the pain in my heart to stop and the only way I knew to do that is by inflicting physical pain upon my body.
I started to feel lightheaded so I sat down on the floor with blood still pouring out of my wrists. The last thing I remember is the door slamming open and then everything went black.
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A/N - Hey guys! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Sorry that it's so sad. It'll get happier soon.
~Clayton
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