I'm Fine | Lee Daehwi

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"Why didn't you say hi to your friends, Daehwi?" My mom asked.

"Uhh..." I didn't know what you say.

"Honey, you know he's a quiet kid." My dad said.

I felt a little useless upon hearing that. Yeah, I'm quiet, therefore I can't socialise? It's not a lie though...

I went straight to my room and changed. I sat at my piano and plugged the headphones in- so I wouldn't make any noise. It was 8.30 already.

I started playing around with chords and such, trying to come up with something to suit the the of our project.

First love.

How would I be able to compose a song about love when I had never even dated? It doesn't matter, I still had to try. I guess a song with a refreshing feel would be good.

In the end, I found the perfect chord sequence and I scribbled it onto my notepad before I forgot. I let myself sleep once I finished because I had been at the piano for so long. I was satisfied with my progress.

The weekend passed in a flash and it was Monday again. Another vicious cycle of school and sleep.

The classroom was full and the students were talking loudly. I went over to the guys and then waved.

"Hey Daehwi, how was your brother's birthday?" Woojin asked.

"It was good, he said the cake was delicious."

"Man, I want some now." He complained. I gave a small laugh and then he turned to the others, abruptly ending our chat.

Once class started, we split into our teams again. We all discussed what was done over the weekend and I was unsure of what to do when they lost track and started talking about what they did on Friday. I silently looked at my notebook and saw my chords that I wrote down.

"Guys, I made a chord pattern that sounded really good." They must've not heard me because not a single person turned their head around. My excited face transformed into nothing as I realised I would just be sitting here doing nothing for the rest of the hour.

The whole day was completely useless as I was just constantly ignored by my supposed friends. It didn't seem that they needed my help much did they?

Well, I guess at lunch, Sungwoon asked me if his skin looked really smooth. I said yes but then he just walked off to talk to Jisung instead. He left me sitting on the table on my own and I just continued to eat my food- in complete silence. With a heavy sigh, I let out all my frustration, hoping that someday, something will be different. For now, I guess nothing will change.