In The Distance, Over Bridges- Evril

In The Dark (Part 2)

Avril

Haunting my heart
Just like a demon in the dark

I couldn't stop wondering what got Evan so mad. I didn't ask him, that felt to be too rude, and besides, he was back to normal now- laughing and talking and messing around. Laughing. Laughing. Laughing. The words came back to my head:
Who knows what could happen do whatcha do and just keep on laughing.
I never figured who I was thinking of when the "laughing" part came to mind. Was I falling in love with Evan? I mean I love him, as a friend, I thought. But maybe it was more than that. I couldn't be. But I was. I was in love with Evan. I love Evan. I love Evan. I love Evan. Ever since then I've been kinda awkward. The feeling had been eating at my heart. It felt like it was there all the time, haunting my heart. It felt good. I knew love was an amazing thing. But because it was with Evan, it felt wrong. Wrong because there was no way in hell he loves, or even likes me back. He's always been just a friend with me. When confronted with dating rumours he just brushes it off like it's nothing.

There's a ghost inside my bones talkin' like you, whisperin' secrets of the things you do

Eventually Evan got a girlfriend. I expected it. It was bound to happen. She was a part time waitress at a diner we visited. She was also in a band, a rather small band but a band. Her name was Cindy and she was actually really nice. I didn't let my jealousy keep me from making friends with her. She taught me drums and I taught her piano  (she already knew guitar) and eventually some of her friends turned into my friends. There was Lorianne, Jenny, and Emma. I finally had some friends, well, female friends. They were in an all-girl rock n' roll band called Bloody Holly. They were pretty damn cool, I gotta say. And yes, Evan and Cindy broke up. But they left on great terms. Bloody Holly got a record deal and they had to leave for California to record. We stayed friends after that too, but I never told her of my feeling for Evan. There was one thing that bothered me about her: she couldn't stop talking about what a great boyfriend Evan was. How he was so caring and sweet. How he was dependable, protective and funny. Whenever she would do that it would just kill me.

You are all alone
I've done it this time
Lost my mind
Haunting my heart
Just like a demon in the dark