I'm giving up on you.

Back To Where We Started

I think I've done it, I think I've finally put a block on my emotions. No more this, no more replays, I can finally think freely. I can talk to you, we spent hours speaking tonight. About the most random shit but I don't care. I've reassured myself that the months that have past are finally over and I think, I truly think that I am finally over you.

I sit here smiling, glad at our achievement. Glad we're remaining friends after our bump. The right call being that we were a shitty teenage relationship of two delinquents who were too nervously fond of each other. It was fun while it lasted, I wouldn't change a thing. I'm just glad to know we're on the mend, growing better and bigger every hour. 

Why has it taken us so bloody long? We bitch, we joke, we tease. We are us, except this us is the defining friendship we once had. I can not enthuse how happy I am right now. Thank you. You have given me back the strength to find myself, my true self. Not the one who got drunk and kissed multiple guys in the one night. Not the one who dresses herself down to suit everyone else. You have shown me the illusory light of the best person I am. You always do and I can never thank you enough for that. 

I am done, I think I finally found peace. The butterfly has risen from her cocoon and I am drifting sky high. Through the clouds and weaving through the flowers. It has taken me this long, but it's expected. The Caterpillar is no more. I spread my wings and I fly, not along side you. But free to be who I am. I will never make that mistake again, thank you for helping find the real me.