Starless Boys ☆ Yuri On Ice

Is This Love

Love.

Everything looks different since the realisation I had that night, during the dark hours, wrapped in Yuuri.

A light shines on everything he does, everything he is. A brighter light than ever before.

He's entrancing to watch, even as he clips orders up for Chris, mesmerising to listen to, even as calls instructions to Pichit.

A bump on my shoulder snaps me out of the spell Yuuri has on me, I look to Chris, standing next to me, smiling knowingly as he wipes his hands on a cloth.

"I hope you have more luck then I did my friend" he slaps me hard on the back.

"What?"

"Have you seen yourself? You look very much in love" he laughs to himself, regarding me with kind pity in his eyes.

Well, I don't just feel different. Apparently I look different.

"I..."

"Its alright. You can admit it. I will not tell him"

"I just- It's too soon right? I must be fooling myself. It can't happen this soon" Chris shakes his head with a pressed smile, crossing his arms.

"Just over a week. That's when I started looking at him like that. Just over a week after we met" he looks into middle distance, smiling sadly as he probably reminisces the past.

"You- Is this okay?" I signal between us. Of course I'm not the only one who feels for Yuuri. Chris shrugs;

"What can I do? Love cannot be controlled. All I can do is wish you the best" he grins, squeezing my shoulder like a supportive older brother.

"Ugh" I sigh, pinching the bridge of my nose. This is all too new and confusing.

"Hey. This is the easy part"

"It gets harder?" I raise a brow at him. The storm within is enough for me. There's so much to stress about;

How does he feel? Would he think I'm weird? He doesn't even know me. Would he ever return my feelings? Would we end up like him and Chris? Would I want to end up like that?

"You know in video games? There are mini bosses and a big boss? We, normal people, are mini bosses when it comes to love. Yuuri is the final boss. The hardest to get. He's hard to love Victor, because hes selfish in the strangest of ways"

"What?"

Selfish. That isn't a word I'd associate with Yuuri Katsuki at all. He's done so much for me at his own expense.

"He believes he should not be loved without taking into account the feelings of anybody else"

"Oh"

That is strange.

"I couldn't change him. Maybe you can"

Could I? Could I be that special to him?

Yuuri interrupts our conversation and my tain of thought, pressing my coat against my chest. He's already kitted out, coat and scarf, the blue fabric just hiding his mouth and matching his glasses. He's adorable.

"C'mon Victor. Chris you're closing shop yea?"

"Yes sir" he nods with a smile. As I follow Yuuri out I look back once more to see Chris smiling at his feet, arms still crossed as he leans against the counter. I wonder how I'd feel, if I were in his position. He seems glad for me, but sad too.

"So Nikiforov, it's Christmas eve, what do you wanna do?" Yuuri wraps his arm around mine, sticking close as we walk out into the snow, smiling up at me so brightly I forget the cold.