Being Human

5. Phantom Pains

Shiro Pov
It was like I was seeing what she saw. Seeing the world in slow motion as her world went black. I woke every night in tears and in pain. She relived those moments everyday and I even see them. She was young that's for sure, but all I wanted to know was why? Who would do this? Why? As I walked towards the kitchen I see her trying to pick up a spoon.

"What are you doing Pidge?" She groans in defeat as she shoots a small glare "I'm trying to hold the spoon. I'm also seeing what abilities I can master since I'm stuck here forever." I chuckled thinking how adorable that was. I bet she was this quirky when she was alive. "Hey, how old are you?" She looks up at me and tilts her head "I'm 22. Well when I died, if I was still living I would have been 24."

She was fairly young. Also to be dead? That's rough. "Why you ask?" "I just wanted to know. I just thought you were older or something?" "Right? You're way older than me and Keith combined." I chuckle and cross my arms "Where is he?" "Out. Brunch with Lance." Wow that was fast? "So are you working today?" "Nope. Day off,  so I'm home all day with you. What do you usually do when were away?"

She giggles and I follow her laughter towards upstairs. "I like looking through your stuff. Especially Keith's, he has some cool things I wish I had of I was still alive." As she sat on the bed I checked Keith's room. It smelled strongly of him. I didn't touch anything cause it's a wolf's den. You mess it up and there's gonna be a fight. As I noticed plates and cups and left over food left around I grimace a bit.

"What a slob" I said as Pidge scoffs "I was way worse." "You're joking?" "Nope. My bedroom was a mess. I hated cleaning and I showered when I felt like it." "That's..uh just gross." I chuckled as I left his room and she followed "How did your ex put with all of this?" She shrugs

"He was like me..well I thought he was. After seeing him sell the apartment he told my brother the truth and why he secretly wanted me gone. You see, my family owns a video game company. So we're pretty up there. He just wanted the money if we got married and if my dad approved him. My brother hated him. Hated him with a passion. My father didn't even spare a glance so when I wanted him to meet my dad and all he was reluctant and then.."

I noticed the change in her voice as it hitched "You saw darkness." She nods "Yeah. Enough about me, how are things with you and your princess?" I rolled my eyes "I'm conflicted with her. I mean I love and care about her but the things she does and acts gets me upset. But I have to remember she has been a vampire way longer than I have. Also she has business she attends to and I'm not allowed to go or know." She smirks

"What a catch.." I sigh "She was back when we first met. It was in the 1920s, she was wearing a beautiful gold flapper dress and her hair in a short bob with small curls. She wore this diamond necklace that made her light blue eyes sparkle. I was just in a classic typical outfit. I never really understood why she chose me to be by her side all these years?" Pidge sighs and smirks

"You're her comfort. She feels safer in your arms and wanted that for all those years. I'm surprised you didn't marry her? It would have been a real love story" she starts laughing and I sigh "I proposed to her.." she stops laughing and looks at seriously "I'm sorry..I didn't mean..uh" she turned red and stopped talking "She still has the ring. I thought she would have sold it to get money. The ring is 100 years old."

"Wow. You two are seriously old. No offense." I smirked "None taken. I saw her wearing it when I went to see her. She keeps asking me if we'll ever be together again? I'm honesty I really do but I'm so afraid she'll do me over again and make me regret on prosposing again." "Then just keep her waiting? You guys are gonna live forever. No rush at all." I chuckle softly as I looked at her. "How many boyfriends have you had?"

"Maybe 2 or 3 before my last one killed me." I nod "Did you love any of them?" She shrugs "My second boyfriend, Myers..He was really caring and sweet and my family loved him. My brother would always take him from me when he visted. We broke up cause he was moving back to his country in Russia. I don't know what he's been up to?" I sigh "I wish I could age."

"Why?" "I don't want to be a monster...I want to be human again." She sighs and moved closer I could feel her. It was like a summer breeze. Nice and warm. "You're not a monster Shiro. To me you're a hero." I scoff a bit "Yeah a hero with a robotic arm. Stupid hag. Making me into this weird creature." As I ranted I felt a warm hand as I turn its Pidge as a bright pink light illuminated around her.

She looks into my eyes as I could see her past. The moment she opened her eyes to the moment she died. I felt tears roll down my face as she let go and disappeared. But yet I could still feel her warm touch. Is this what Keith felt? It can't be right? "Pidge?" I looked around as I heard a scream as i get up and see her falling down the stairs down to her death.

As she lays there her eyes pop open and she gets up "Sorry. It happens when I.." she held her arms as I wanted to hold her and something more but I couldn't. "I'm back!" As we turn its Keith and he's smiling until he sees us "What's wrong? Something happen while I was gone?" "No. I'm gonna go for a walk."

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I just kept walking, I didn't care where. I just needed to breathe. I still felt her warm touch. It makes me feel that maybe she could hold a solid form of she really tried. I blush at the thought of her lips on mine. "Ahh!" I hold my head and shake quickly before I feel an odd presence. I quickly turn and see Allura walking towards me "What's wrong? You seem stressed? Want to fix it at my place~"

she caressed my face as I melted into it like always "Not tonight kitten. Also you reek of human, sucked one dry didn't you?" She giggles and starts walking away "Nothing passes you. Does it?" I shake my head "knowing you for years has it perks. Our history with each other." She nods as she flips her hair to the side "Do you love me?" I asked as she laughs and nods

"Of course I do. Why ask such a crazy question?" "Do you love me enough to change? To start all over. No more over doing it or secret feeding runs?" She hesitates a bit and nods "If it's for you, I can stop and start over. Do you think we'll be back to our old ways?" She asks as she wraps her arms around me.

"As in our relationship. I hope so and maybe we could work on getting that ring on to the other hand." She smiles brightly "You would want that?" I nodded "Absolutely but you have to better yourself for that to work kitten." I brushed my nose against hers as she giggles in delight "I will..I promise."

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As I made it home pidge was sitting on the couch fiddling with her small fingers. "Pidge?" She jumps a bit as she gets up "Shiro. Uh can we talk about earlier?" I nodded as I came closer as I noticed her face flush a light pink. That's New? "I am so sorry about what I made you feel I'm still new at touching and keeping a solid form I guess I felt connected with you that I was able to.." she stops as I got closer and smiled at her

"You don't need to be sorry about that pidge. It actually felt nice getting to feel your touch. Your warm touch on my frozen one actually made me feel normal for once." She smirks "God you aren't making this easy for me.." I chuckled "What do you mean?" She looked up at me as she moved closer. I felt my heart race as she was inching closer as I closed my eyes I felt nothing

"Did you really think i was gonna kiss you? You have a girlfriend Shiro. You are just like any guy. Anyways night Shiro" she leaves with an annoyed sigh as I held my chest. What the hell was That? Did I actually want to kiss her? Did she want me to? I thought she did? I shake my head. I need to focus on Allura not pidge even though that sounds messed up. I don't need to fall for someone else.