I'm currently dying coz it's been forever since I've stayed up this late.
I've been scrolling through Pinterest nonstop, and I'm just in my bed. It's pass 1 am, I'm feeling loopy, and I feel hot for some reason.
Not temperature wise, just I feel like I'm attractive af. Idk why, I'm a piece of garbage that can pretty much rock both genders if I even put a dress on for once in my life.
I'm never coming out about my gender identity.
Why?
My mom thinks being gender fluid is weird and I know I won't be accepted in this society.
I tried to come out as bi, and she's just like "you should think about it more".
B*TCH BY THE TIME I CAME OUT I HAD A GIRLFRIEND AND HAVE HAD BOYFRIENDS I'M PRETTY SURE I'M BISEXUAL EITHER THAT OR I'M PAN OR GAY AF IDK
I can't get comfy on my bed. I turn one way, my arm gets tired.
I turn the other way, my other arm gets tired.
I lay on my back, both arms get tired! Wtf!
If any of you want to see hot pictures of my trying to be hot, let me know. I'll take a bunch of selfies as a boy and a girl and post them on here. (Btw, when I'm a girl, most of the time my glasses or on.)
I'm like super upset with myself coz I have a crush on one of my friends, but we're both in a relationship and it's awkward for me coz I love my boyfriend with all my heart and soul.
And yet, I still can't shake this stupid crush off.
My crush is probably reading this but doesn't know it's them. Fml, guys. I'm a fricken coward.
They even pretty much explained the whole thing on Snapchat too! I do have them on my mind, they help me even get excited about school, my art is fricken from them saying that my art is good and from all the times I've given them drawings or stupid little comics I drew for them!
They kept all my art I've given them. That should specify who it is. They get told they get crushed on like a million times, so I don't think I'm any different.
Excuse that. I kinda wanted to get that off my chest. I wonder if they even read this book. Whatever, I don't care anymore!
I need more stuff for my Ask or Dare OCs book! DX halp!
I'm so effing tired.. I'm gonna use the bathroom then go to bed. It's like 1:20 am.
So, I love you all and good night!
happy christler
