Ok. Idk if I've mentioned this before, and if I did call me out on it.
Surprisingly, I have a super small sliver of depression. It's not very much, but I know it's there.
And when something I deem "super horrible", that small sliver gets bigger and bigger until either my friends (internet or not) cheer me up or the next day comes.
I usually get depressed over stupid things, so don't think I'm trying to get attention here. I actually don't like being put in the spotlight.
I have social anxiety when it comes to new people on the internet or in reality. It's hard for me to send a message to someone greeting them and hoping to be friends, it's hard for me to comment stuff sometimes, it's hard for me in real life to compliment people or say hi to new people.
Going back to the "hoping we can be friends thing", I'm scared that people won't like me and will later abandon me. I've mentioned this one before.
It's called autophobia/atelophobia. I have the fear of being alone and not being good enough.
But I'm ok with being alone in my house. In all honesty, I don't think the autophobia makes sense.
Unless I'm just scared of being alone and not having friends? Idk..
I also have arachniphobia, which is easily known as the fear of spiders. I'm sure lots of people have it, right?
I also have the fear of being forgotten and replaced, which is athazagoraphobia. This is most of the reason why I spam message certain people: so none of them will forget me.
And the most ridiculous fear I have is the fear of the dark/what's hiding in the dark. Yep. I have nyctophobia.
Hardly any of my friends know about how depressed I can be. Only certain ones have seen me become a mess and wanting to just disappear.
That's enough of my self pity. Kinda selfish, huh?
Anyways, thanks to all who read all of this dumbness. Now that this is on here, you can all know how much of a baby I am.
