The Rogue's Daughter

Chapter 19 (PRIVATE)

WARNING!
SEX. LANGUAGE.
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

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-Fierce

"You love me but you don't want me to love you back. How cruel" he sarcastically laugh

"I'm sorry"

-Pleasure and Regrets (Coming Soon)

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I believe, I'm dying.

If not. Then kill me.

Patuloy ang pag-agos ng luha ko. Naiwan akong nakatulala, kaharap ang kisame.

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata. Telling to myself that I need to stop thinking before I become crazy. Pero parang pelikulang paulit-ulit kong naiisip ang mga nangyari kanina.

Am I too selfish?

Naalala ko si Kane. Marami kaming pinagsamahan. More or less, halos lahat ng naranasan ko, kasama ko siya. He is always there for me. Even when I am sad, happy, angry, frustrated or excited.

He is my comfort zone.

My bestfriend.

My mate.

A part of me want to accept Kane, para ibalik ang kung anong mayroon kami dati.

But also, a part of me want to reject him and live my life away from him and my family.

I am scared.

My wolf nudge me. Sa aming dalawa. Alam kong mas nahihirapan ang wolf ko.

Wolves doesn't understand the rational part of the human side. She just want her mate, have pups and live her life with him . My wolf is nurtured by the nature, full-train by the Moon Goddess. She is basically moving because of her nature and instinct.

And nature want her to want his mate for herself.

Sana ganun lang kadali.

But I can't love someone if I can't forgive myself.

I cannot forgive myself.

Maybe, the wolves around me, already move on from that tragedy.

Maybe, my mother and father forgive themselves. At kahit nawala ako sa kanila ng ilang taon. I know masaya pa rin sila because they have each other. They depend on the bond that strengthen by their love.

Si Kane. I know he is moving forward to reach his peace.

Pero ako.

I can't.

Hindi ko kayang maging masaya at kalimutan ang lahat.

I killed him.

My brother.

With that, mas lalo pang bumuhos ang luha ko.

My heat worsen it. Pero kahit na mainit ang buong kalamnan ko. Para akong nilalamig.

I shivered by the coldness from the harsh truth of life,

me being alone.

May pagkakataon akong maging masaya pero wala akong ginawa.

At kung mangyayari ulit ang kanina, wala pa rin akong gagawin.

This is my punishment.